Being lonely and not having any real friends sucks. I 'm so tired of this miserable life 😞

[Misery99]

I'm so lonely in my life. I don't have any close friends in real life. The ones I thought were close friends were turned out to be backstabbing bitches and they only want me if they need something done. My family isn't any better. My siblings don't even remember my birthday even if I wish them happy birthday every year. I try to make everyone happy around me but they don't give a damn about me. I don't know if it's a women thing, but women tends to be the worst friends for other women. There was a girl in my neighborhood,whom I thought was a good friend but she turned out to be a backstabbing bitch. She had said some mean things about me to other neighbors. Saying stuff like I'm mentally ill and I can never have a normal life. Why is she such a jerk? I treated her just like a sister of my own. I gave her valuable birthday gifts and she had some business which I helped her without expecting anything in return. Now she has a boyfriend and don't even text me like she used to unless she needs something done again. Seems like people around me don't care about me at all. Unless they can get something from me. I wish there was a very high building or something to climb then jump and die. I wish there was someone to help me to die. I'm truly sick of this lonely life.

 

[27clubBRIAN]

I feel you , I wish dying wasn't so looked down on in society I wish there was a safe house for others like us that we could go and CTB in a peaceful sanctuary

 

[eternalflame]

How is your family? Do you take some medications for depression or something else?

 

[Misery99]

I feel you , I wish dying wasn't so looked down on in society I wish there was a safe house for others like us that we could go and CTB in a peaceful sanctuary

I heard that there's some device called Sarco Pod invented in Switzerland which can give people who wants to ctb a painless death. Unfortunately I live in a shitty third world country and people are generally like monsters here.

How is your family? Do you take some medications for depression or something else?

They aren't any better. Dad used to be an alcoholic. Mom used to be a cheating sex addict. That gave me enough childhood trauma. And my older siblings ask me for money even though they never looked after me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Some people really are so cruel and to me it's terrible the way that many people treat others. I understand the feeling of being tired of everything.. Life just seems to be endless problems and pain with no relief. To me the Sarco sounds ideal. A peaceful exit from this life should be a human right, and dying should not be this difficult, it's unfair and selfish to expect people to just suffer.

 

[Misery99]

Some people really are so cruel and to me it's terrible the way that many people treat others. I understand the feeling of being tired of everything.. Life just seems to be endless problems and pain with no relief. To me the Sarco sounds ideal. A peaceful exit from this life should be a human right, and dying should not be this difficult, it's unfair and selfish to expect people to just suffer.

That's so true. Some evil people can be cruel for the sensitive and nice people. This world is a wicked and messed up place. I think only death can escape me from this sorrow.

 

[SuicideM4n]

23 years here and I have zero friends too

 

[jossstick]

@Misery99 re the Sarco Pod - they've recently made it really difficult to use that (I'm in the UK).
I also wish there was someone to help me die but I partly don't trust anyone that much, and don't want to implicate anyone either. Life is most definitely horrible (that's putting it mildly).

@27clubBRIAN a safe house sounds a blissful idea, it would take so much pressure off trying to find the all the right bits for succeeding, and take away so much anguish not knowing if it's going to work. Such a pity suicide isn't legal.

 

[eternalflame]

Do you take any medications?

 

[DarkNearDeath]

I found someone but had to cancel plans for today because of coughing.. I don't have much friends TBH

 

[Lost Magic]

I feel the same. I lost connections with reasonably decent people years ago. The people who I grew up with were toxic. They made life so much harder than it should have been. The ones who are 'lucky' enough to have had a stable upbringing with good friends are so damn lucky. I was cursed since the day I was born.

 

[Brianiskillingme]

I dont have any friends, just my daughter and cousin. It is lonely and because my last BF (Brian) was a covert narcissist, my trust is gone. Blah

 

[Burner1234]

I understand your frustration when it comes to meeting genuine friends and people. It sucks when people turn their back on you after you defended them, helped them, opened up to them, etc. My advice for that would probably be to keep people at an arms distance until you get to know them better and not reveal too much about yourself initially. I personally weeded out people this way with positive effect, eventually they'll reveal their true intentions to you, they'll spill the beans.
It might be a good idea to entirely cut out these toxic people from your life if possible, they're not worth the time and energy if you can avoid them entirely. This is easier said than done considering your situation, however do your best to not let them get under your skin.
As for family issues, oh man not sure I struggle with this one myself.
At the end of the day, do your best to not let those people make you upset. I know it's hard it sucks. People get off on drama and negativity, and they want a reaction out of you. Don't let them get that satisfaction.
I hope this helps. You can always return to us for support. Good luck.

 

[Message In A Bottle]

Me too...truly messes with your psyche not having anyone to relate to or talk with - like how it's detrimental for rats to have other rats to socialize with, I think we are the same way.

 

[Spyro24]

I feel the same exact way unfortunately... lonely and anxious. The more people stab me in the back, the more it hurts and the more anxious I become. If you need someone to talk to, feel free to reach out. I can't promise you that it'll go anywhere but I feel like we could learn a thing or two from each other

 

[ForeverLonely82]

In the same boat. 40 years of age and I have 0 friends. Also (going to get a backlash for this) I became a misogynist. Every woman I interacted with in life just use me for my good nature. I have one female friend from youth who witnessed all I have done for the girlfriends I had and seen they just took advantage of me. Never expected anything in return either only gave and had nothing to take. There very well be good women out there, but I don't see them. Friends I had either drifted or had difference of opinion to where being friends was more of a inconvenience than enjoyable (for them...I guess). Too many fake people out there. They preach peace and love, but they are so full of shit and hypocritical to the point where I just want them to shut up. For this I am also a misanthrope as I gotten hurt more times then I care to count. Lied to, stolen from, double crossed...the list goes on. All I ever wanted in life was to be in love, have some friends to have fun with and enjoy living, but it's all a pipe dream because I have to be asleep to beleive it.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I have no family or friends. Now, to be truthful, I did have some friends many years back, but I made the choice to get rid of them, for exactly the kinds of things you mention in your post. They were toxic. Just constantly doing shit to me I didn't deserve. A person can only take so much. I'm better off without them. My family all died. It is lonely, though. I give you that.

 

[veryhappyhuman]

My only "friends" were my colleagues at work, as pathetic that is. But then they'd do shit like having parties and not only not inviting me (and only me), but conspiring to hide that it happened at all, until I find out by some other means. Or using me for their work shit (after work hours) and then laughing behind my back how easy I am to take advantage of. This shit kept happening and I just wanted to scream "what the fuck did I do to you all? why can't you treat me like you treated each other?" all the time. I was so desperate for human company that I kept letting them get away with this. Hey at least I have someone to talk to, right?

But at one point I could take it no more and decided I'd rather do without friends. It's lonely af without anyone to even talk to, but hey no more "nice in front of your face but mock you behind back" shit anymore.

 

[losingit]

I know how you feel, we are almost hard wired to want and need social connections and not having that sucks. And watching others who are difficult/ not nice have friends confuses me. I feel like there is a social 'code' I'm missing

 

[Sun n showers]

I heard that there's some device called Sarco Pod invented in Switzerland which can give people who wants to ctb a painless death. Unfortunately I live in a shitty third world country and people are generally like monsters here.

They aren't any better. Dad used to be an alcoholic. Mom used to be a cheating sex addict. That gave me enough childhood trauma. And my older siblings ask me for money even though they never looked after me.

The sarco pod is just a drawing, it doesn't exist. When and if it is OK ed by the end of life clinic dignitas, it will be a secure capsule filled witb nitrogen that one turns on by themselves. But thats no different from being accepted by them and taking nembutal. Just another option, easier than nitrogen with exit bag on your head. Cos yoh can't get out of the tank, whereas you can pull a bag off of your head when your survival instinct kicks in ...
Where do you live if i may ask?