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loopylou
Learn to fly
- Jan 11, 2021
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About 6 months ago I had a pretty bad mental health breakdown that I'm still riding now. At that moment I decided to remove every single friend from my social media account. I still use the groups and pages so I didn't want to delete my account altogether.
At the time I had a few ' friends ' ask why , they took it deeply personal but it wasn't really like that. I just wanted to distance myself from them so I guess when I go, it won't be so painful?
One friend this evening got upset with me and I explained that I'm actively suicidal and why and her response was ' you just have to keep going '
but .. why do I? For others? For the slim chance I will get over this? I won't, I know I won't. I tried, really really tried.
I'm tired to be honest.
can anyone relate?
At the time I had a few ' friends ' ask why , they took it deeply personal but it wasn't really like that. I just wanted to distance myself from them so I guess when I go, it won't be so painful?
One friend this evening got upset with me and I explained that I'm actively suicidal and why and her response was ' you just have to keep going '
but .. why do I? For others? For the slim chance I will get over this? I won't, I know I won't. I tried, really really tried.
I'm tired to be honest.
can anyone relate?