Venting Being here is making it worse

[dying_kwik2000]

The first few days I was on SS I felt validated and it was helpful to have people to speak to, but now I just feel more alone than I did before. And being here is just fueling my suicidal thoughts. I don't really like who I live with so I escape through here but now I don't really have anyone to talk to which is just making me want to die even more.

I feel like im in a catch-22. But here and feel alone and suicidal or not and be alone and suicidal. I feel like I need to talk to someone but I don't know if it will help.

I thought after awhile I would make acquaintances or something but I just feel worse.

I try to research ways of killing myself but there is always a reason it won't work out. It's kind of pissing me off. It honestly can't be that hard to kill yourself. Why is it so complicated?

Right now, my best bet is CO poisoning in the small bathroom toilet but I might not be able to get bought charcoal or a big enough grill.

 

[fadedghost]

sometimes there are depression support groups and those could alleviate your loneliness, but you won't be able to discuss suicide without risk of being locked up.

i find comfort in being around people who are also sad here, but it doesn't really stop loneliness like being around people in person does. if you don't feel comfortable with ending your life, there are other group options in person to talk about depression and get mental health support from other people