Venting Being exposed to g0re changed how I view life

[norwegianbuttercris]

I've always been fascinated with the concept of death and how far the human body can be pushed until it gives up.
Even being as young as 10 years old and seeing isis beheading videos online and acting utterly unfazed by it makes me cringe looking back now.
During lockdown, I was on social media 10 times more than I usually am and it led me to have a g0re addiction.
(obviously, i searched for it and didn't just stumble across it)
But it fundamentally normalised really morbid things to me and i wish I didn't think this way,
things like cartel torture videos, extreme self-harm, people CTB by jumping off of buildings and shooting themselves.
I can watch that stuff and not feel a thing.
It's even changed how I think, like when i'm crossing the street I think "if i get hit by a car rn people on Twitter are going to laugh at me".
My first plan for CTB was jumping in front of a train but the thought of being on someone's Snapchat story scared me out of it.
This post is really messy, apologies.
does anyone who watched a large amount of g0re also think this way? or am i just really insecure lol

 

[hypertext]

i think this is a bigger problem amongst gen Zers than most people are willing to talk about. i hardly know anybody who hadn't seen an isis or cartel video by the time they were 13. for me it definitely made me super apathetic. i think i lost all my sense of safety (although the videos werent the only reason) and i started seeing the world as a dark and evil place.

 

[Mirrory Me]

Do you understand why you have this obsession? They are just ordinary people who suffer.

 

[aitouka]

I have a similar problem, but it stemmed from medical magazines that I stumbled upon when I was 8 or 9. A lot of bloody scenes. Completely apathetic when seeing gore. I don't have an addiction really, but I am interested in looking at it from time to time.

 

[eternalbliss22]

It depends on the type of gore for me. The first I remember seeing was one of my brother's mutilated dead body. Seeing it actually helped me cope with the grief over losing him. Same thing 11 years later after another brother's body after a gun shot suicide to the head. I didn't enjoy seeing them, but it helped me to cope with their death. I've seen Faces of Death while eating with no problems. Can't say there's enjoyment, but there's a curiosity about it as long as it's about human adults. If it's children or animals I have trouble watching. I'll get sick to the stomach & pissed off. 30 years ago I saw a video of Chinese restaurant killing cats to be cooked & eaten & i still get upset thinking about it. I've got no issue with them or any animal being eaten, but strangling, beating into unconsciousness & boiled alive is bull shit. I don't even have an issue with people that eat human afterbirth, though I do think it's disgusting & cannibalism.

 

[54378]

I watch gore almost every day but don't see it as a problem. I think it is good to remind myself what a lot of people are capable of. Besides, gore is an everyday thing for a lot of people (i.e., people in war zones), so, when comparing myself to them and what they go through and have seen first hand, me seeing this much gore on a screen isn't that bad.

 

[Sluggish_Slump]

I wish I was apathetic to gore and less squeamish, it would have made it a lot easier to watch ctb videos and learn from them.. Being desensitized from watching gore is more of an advantage when it comes to planning a suicide (or if you choose to not ctb at the end, it's still nice to be desensitized to this in general)

 

[norwegianbuttercris]

Do you understand why you have this obsession? They are just ordinary people who suffer.

I wish I knew, it was the only thing that really interested me when I was in a deep depression.

It depends on the type of gore for me. The first I remember seeing was one of my brother's mutilated dead body. Seeing it actually helped me cope with the grief over losing him. Same thing 11 years later after another brother's body after a gun shot suicide to the head. I didn't enjoy seeing them, but it helped me to cope with their death. I've seen Faces of Death while eating with no problems. Can't say there's enjoyment, but there's a curiosity about it as long as it's about human adults. If it's children or animals I have trouble watching. I'll get sick to the stomach & pissed off. 30 years ago I saw a video of Chinese restaurant killing cats to be cooked & eaten & i still get upset thinking about it. I've got no issue with them or any animal being eaten, but strangling, beating into unconsciousness & boiled alive is bull shit. I don't even have an issue with people that eat human afterbirth, though I do think it's disgusting & cannibalism.

damn i'm sorry you had to go through that.
Yeah i'm the same its very hard to watch when children and animals are involved.
fr people who eat placenta are kinda freaky like that

 

[Holu]

I've always been fascinated with the concept of death and how far the human body can be pushed until it gives up.
Even being as young as 10 years old and seeing isis beheading videos online and acting utterly unfazed by it makes me cringe looking back now.
During lockdown, I was on social media 10 times more than I usually am and it led me to have a g0re addiction.
(obviously, i searched for it and didn't just stumble across it)
But it fundamentally normalised really morbid things to me and i wish I didn't think this way,
things like cartel torture videos, extreme self-harm, people CTB by jumping off of buildings and shooting themselves.
I can watch that stuff and not feel a thing.
It's even changed how I think, like when i'm crossing the street I think "if i get hit by a car rn people on Twitter are going to laugh at me".
My first plan for CTB was jumping in front of a train but the thought of being on someone's Snapchat story scared me out of it.
This post is really messy, apologies.
does anyone who watched a large amount of g0re also think this way? or am i just really insecure lol

Whether it be sadism or harm ocd I am constantly thinking about hurting others. Strangely I still have a distaste for seeing others suffer, even if the thought of it captivities me. I usually laugh at gore and occasionally will cringe at the pain. During my mania I tend to fluctuate into an intense desire to rip and tear and mutilate, both at myself and others. Thankfully I haven't seriously harmed anyone. I would say so long as you aren't actively committing such gore it's whatever. Might be best to consider antipsychotics if you are getting near that tho

 

[hellispink]

the way i saw the world definitely changed when i saw some videos on what people were capable of. After that i dont feel nothing either . I wonder how is people live without knowing what humans are really up to, they live in a lie in a bubble . They had no idea how evil this place is

 

[norwegianbuttercris]

Whether it be sadism or harm ocd I am constantly thinking about hurting others. Strangely I still have a distaste for seeing others suffer, even if the thought of it captivities me. I usually laugh at gore and occasionally will cringe at the pain. During my mania I tend to fluctuate into an intense desire to rip and tear and mutilate, both at myself and others. Thankfully I haven't seriously harmed anyone. I would say so long as you aren't actively committing such gore it's whatever. Might be best to consider antipsychotics if you are getting near that tho

ayo i just watch it on twitter dot com and some sketchy websites with 100 porno ads homie but i appreciate the advice.

i'm thankful you haven't harmed anyone too i'm just hoping they don't use this thread as evidence if you do

stay safe man

the way i saw the world definitely changed when i saw some videos on what people were capable of. After that i dont feel nothing either . I wonder how is people live without knowing what humans are really up to, they live in a lie in a bubble . They had no idea how evil this place is

fr it changed my perspective of things, people can be so cruel to others in life and after they die

 

[Holu]

ayo i just watch it on twitter dot com and some sketchy websites with 100 porno ads homie but i appreciate the advice.

i'm thankful you haven't harmed anyone too i'm just hoping they don't use this thread as evidence if you do

stay safe man

fr it changed my perspective of things, people can be so cruel to others in life and after they die

Ha send the pigs to me. Death to all rapists, pedos, abusers and lemme tell u then fucks gotta fill at least one of those
And nah u ain't gotta worry bout me. I'll take myself out b4 I truly hurt another

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

I've always been fascinated with the concept of death and how far the human body can be pushed until it gives up.
Even being as young as 10 years old and seeing isis beheading videos online and acting utterly unfazed by it makes me cringe looking back now.
During lockdown, I was on social media 10 times more than I usually am and it led me to have a g0re addiction.
(obviously, i searched for it and didn't just stumble across it)
But it fundamentally normalised really morbid things to me and i wish I didn't think this way,
things like cartel torture videos, extreme self-harm, people CTB by jumping off of buildings and shooting themselves.
I can watch that stuff and not feel a thing.
It's even changed how I think, like when i'm crossing the street I think "if i get hit by a car rn people on Twitter are going to laugh at me".
My first plan for CTB was jumping in front of a train but the thought of being on someone's Snapchat story scared me out of it.
This post is really messy, apologies.
does anyone who watched a large amount of g0re also think this way? or am i just really insecure lol

I had the same addiction and I lost nearly every friend I had because of how it triggered psychosis. I absolutely despise those videos and hate how I acted or even wanted to recreate them.

Sure, I can keep my cool when someone else doesn't have a head but what good is that for the empathy for others suffering everyday? They made me less empathetic and I quit a while ago. I get uncomfortable with how accessible they are, I've heard stories from young kids watching them on reddit after getting recommended it.

I've seen just about every horrible video on existence, if you can say vague details about one I can probably say I watched it. I won't name any of them here because simply fuck that. I hate those videos, I hate how kids say look me up I'm (insert guy who killed himself on stream)!

I just hate those videos in general and I'm really insecure about how they made me act. FFS I was so paranoid about the cartel finding me I got banned / deleted every social media I had. Nobody knew I was suffering nor knew the power these videos had over me. Everyone sees me as a complete an utter asshole, nobody asked me; "Hey are you okay?"

Those videos could of absolutely ruined my life because they triggered a psychotic episode and now I'm to the point where I don't value my life. Tell me I'll die tomorrow and I won't care. Tell me to live, nope.

 

[man_in_red:)]

Tbh if I was a ghost and saw people laughing at my dead body I'd be pretty pissed.

 

[Holu]

Tbh if I was a ghost and saw people laughing at my dead body I'd be pretty pissed.

Agreed. Anyone who films murder or suicide should be skinned and buried alive

 

[man_in_red:)]

Agreed. Anyone who films murder or suicide should be skinned and buried alive

Yeah but make sure not to film it. :)