deadzombie6
Exhausted
- Oct 15, 2024
- 52
Nobody would want to be friends with you because you are seen as weird and boring.
I see everyday how people treat me differently and the worst part is that i just can't exist normally my social anxiety is so bad i forget how to walk and talk when someone's looking at me , every single Second of the day i feel like I'm being judged my head feels like it'll burst wide open in public places . I can't talk to strangers can't make eye contact i only rot in my room i just can't bring myself to face people I don't know how to talk or what to talk . It's ruining my life . The thing is it doesn't just stops at not having friends I'm very much sure i won't even get a job because I don't know how to hold a conversation i have basically zero social skills . Another reason I wanna CTB is because i don't want to be unemployed once I graduate . Last year i thought of applying to some part-time job but the thought of even being around people makes me sick . I hate my existence i just want to lock myself away let alone get a job or try to make friends. I'll forever mourn the life I never got to have because of my social anxiety and introverted personality
I see everyday how people treat me differently and the worst part is that i just can't exist normally my social anxiety is so bad i forget how to walk and talk when someone's looking at me , every single Second of the day i feel like I'm being judged my head feels like it'll burst wide open in public places . I can't talk to strangers can't make eye contact i only rot in my room i just can't bring myself to face people I don't know how to talk or what to talk . It's ruining my life . The thing is it doesn't just stops at not having friends I'm very much sure i won't even get a job because I don't know how to hold a conversation i have basically zero social skills . Another reason I wanna CTB is because i don't want to be unemployed once I graduate . Last year i thought of applying to some part-time job but the thought of even being around people makes me sick . I hate my existence i just want to lock myself away let alone get a job or try to make friends. I'll forever mourn the life I never got to have because of my social anxiety and introverted personality
what you just described is exactly how i feel too, word by word. Same thing about jobs, friends, not know what to do in social situations.. it's hell. Really feels like the world is rigged at times, holding something against people like us. Even my doctors don't know what to do it seems like, their advice is "talk to more people you'll get over it". Bullshit.
