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Enlightened
- Apr 8, 2020
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After I graduated university my depression was persistent and not going away so I decided to connect online with other depression sufferers to help deal with the loneliness of being a depression sufferer. This depression support community majority of its users are from the UK and some are from other countries too. The community is liberal, secular and very pro recovery.
The moderator ( now deceased) has suffered from depression and anxiety throughout her entire life. She even had postnatal depression in all 3 pregnancies. Her husband wanted her to abort the 3rd baby and woman chose to keep the baby. She went through the pregnancy alone. She mentions how the husband has been neglecting the children and even said her husband wasn't sure if he loved her. It was clear she stayed with the man because she was scared of going it alone. Despite her life long struggle with mental illness and trauma she turned out be quite a judgemental person incapable of listening to different opinions on mental health and the NHS.
On the forum when I was a member i argued that UK mental health awareness campaigns telling people to seek help for mental illness is ineffective because the mental health care system is inaccessible to the majority of the general public. The moderator got defensive and disagreed with me saying how awareness is important. This woman was middle class with no problems accessing therapy.
During the 2020 covid19 pandemic I got builled out of the community by the moderator and the other depression sufferers. I was at my lowest point. I mentioned on the forum as truthfully as possible that sometimes i wished I died of covid19 because I don't really deserve to be alive in this world. The moderator of the site she attacked me and she said my comments are "insulting " and she talked about how she has been shielding during the pandemic due to her disabilities. Another site member she was the biggest bully and she criticised me on the site. She brought up about her cousin died of covid19 and didn't get to say goodbye. She called me " selfish " and said i didn't "understand "what i was talking about. She is in her 40s and also she said " I wish I was young, had a law degree and a caring family " She attacked me on the site the moderator along with all the site members sided with her as she builled me. I ended up being accused of attacking her when I tried to defend myself. The whole community turned against me.
The same month on the site when I wrote a post about how if you kill yourself people seem to care more about you and really appreciate you than if you were alive. I made reference to the suicide of a famous UK celebrity who killed herself who got loads of massive public outpouring of love. The moderator responded with hostility and called my comments "offensive". She imposed restrictions on my posts which were every post i wrote had to be approved by her. After that I left. She was so rude to me in the emails when discussing closing my account.
After that I became a fully active member of Sanactioned Suicide
The moderator ( now deceased) has suffered from depression and anxiety throughout her entire life. She even had postnatal depression in all 3 pregnancies. Her husband wanted her to abort the 3rd baby and woman chose to keep the baby. She went through the pregnancy alone. She mentions how the husband has been neglecting the children and even said her husband wasn't sure if he loved her. It was clear she stayed with the man because she was scared of going it alone. Despite her life long struggle with mental illness and trauma she turned out be quite a judgemental person incapable of listening to different opinions on mental health and the NHS.
On the forum when I was a member i argued that UK mental health awareness campaigns telling people to seek help for mental illness is ineffective because the mental health care system is inaccessible to the majority of the general public. The moderator got defensive and disagreed with me saying how awareness is important. This woman was middle class with no problems accessing therapy.
During the 2020 covid19 pandemic I got builled out of the community by the moderator and the other depression sufferers. I was at my lowest point. I mentioned on the forum as truthfully as possible that sometimes i wished I died of covid19 because I don't really deserve to be alive in this world. The moderator of the site she attacked me and she said my comments are "insulting " and she talked about how she has been shielding during the pandemic due to her disabilities. Another site member she was the biggest bully and she criticised me on the site. She brought up about her cousin died of covid19 and didn't get to say goodbye. She called me " selfish " and said i didn't "understand "what i was talking about. She is in her 40s and also she said " I wish I was young, had a law degree and a caring family " She attacked me on the site the moderator along with all the site members sided with her as she builled me. I ended up being accused of attacking her when I tried to defend myself. The whole community turned against me.
The same month on the site when I wrote a post about how if you kill yourself people seem to care more about you and really appreciate you than if you were alive. I made reference to the suicide of a famous UK celebrity who killed herself who got loads of massive public outpouring of love. The moderator responded with hostility and called my comments "offensive". She imposed restrictions on my posts which were every post i wrote had to be approved by her. After that I left. She was so rude to me in the emails when discussing closing my account.
After that I became a fully active member of Sanactioned Suicide
