Venting Been here over a year

[ham and potatoes]

Well guys and gals, I just realized I've had an account here for over a year.
Honestly, when I first created an account here, I didn't imagine I'd have made it anywhere this long.
Things have gotten slightly better for me, still pretty depressed though.
I no longer plan on ending things in the immediate future, although, I'm pretty sure that I will be my demise in the end.
Honestly, knowing I've found myself an easy and peaceful way out has taken allot of the stress out of things, and kinda feels like a relief, knowing I've got a way out of things get rough?
Idk, it's hard to explain.
But knowing I've got a way out feels like it has taken a huge weight off my shoulders

 

[Knoc]

I'm glad you feel a little bit better , way to go.

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

Congratulations, I'm happy things are starting to to look up for you And I understand what you mean when you say having a way out is a comfort to you, I feel the same way. I guess it's a nice feeling knowing you have a certain way to just peace out whenever you wish?

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel relief at just having the option, I wish you the best.

 

[Linda]

Well guys and gals, I just realized I've had an account here for over a year.
Honestly, when I first created an account here, I didn't imagine I'd have made it anywhere this long.
Things have gotten slightly better for me, still pretty depressed though.
I no longer plan on ending things in the immediate future, although, I'm pretty sure that I will be my demise in the end.
Honestly, knowing I've found myself an easy and peaceful way out has taken allot of the stress out of things, and kinda feels like a relief, knowing I've got a way out of things get rough?
Idk, it's hard to explain.
But knowing I've got a way out feels like it has taken a huge weight off my shoulders

People often find that if they have a means of ctb readily available, it lessens the pressure to ctb. I suppose that's because you are now in control of your life. You are not completely at the mercy of external forces.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

I feel you, just getting SN and having it is such a big thing for me now. Glad you are doing better, and congrats on the anniversary!