
Someplace_nice
Student
- Sep 28, 2024
- 118
I been getting depressed at the end of the day for a few days now, idk why but I've been wanting to SH and CTB a lot, and well, it makes it easier to SH at night when I do something bad. And I have already and have a plan for it again tonight. I can't tell him, it'd break his heart into a million little pieces. I don't sleep at night so my mind goes wild and I go into a spiral while he's dead asleep so he can't stop me. I've hinted at my plan last night and he didn't take it to heart so ik that he'll never be the wiser. It feels so damn good to sit in my depression and SH, I've really missed it. It feels like my life is getting back to normal instead of this dream I'm living and the funny thing is, I don't wanna stop. It feels like something I was missing in my life. I'm afraid that it'll spiral into something else but I also don't think it will.