Be careful what you wish for

[Raven2]

Been suicidal for a good few years now, it's slightly eased up in the last month for some reason.
During dark days I've wished for a serious illness to take over me. Well I might have just got that wish.

I've had an urgent doctors appointment and xray done today. I have a high white blood cell count, way above normal levels that the doctor is concerned about.

I'm possibly being referred to a specialist as blood cancer is a possibility. I'm just awaiting more tests.
I always thought if I got ill I'd be glad but I've got a headache from the stress of worrying. I told a family member and they asked me if I'm worried I just said its maybe a mix up at the lab as I dont want them fretting that I'm worried. I should find out next week what's going on.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

It could be a lot of things, many benign. I hope you don't have any cancers. Wait on the test to know for certain. Good luck!