Giraffey
Your Orange Crush
- Mar 7, 2020
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The more I think about it, the more I'm beginning to believe that I have some form of body dysmorphia stemming from abuse at the hands of an ex-partner.
It relates to one specific element of my body, nobody else I've spoken to about it can see anything 'wrong' although I would argue that's a weak test.
On some days it dominates my thoughts, worry and fear and disgust abound; I search for corrective treatments and remain unconvinced by any objective evidence that such treatments are unnecessary.
I don't know whether I meet the criteria for a 'disorder' or whether this thought pattern is better described as a facet of a complex spectrum of trauma, it's not an area I've ever really dealt with before.
Looking at this part of my body is akin to living in a funhouse. The people around me who see me directly give me their word that nothing is wrong, abnormal or disgusting, and yet since 'seeing is believing' I stare into the curvy mirrors and mentally vomit at the grotesque caricature staring back at me like some hideous disfigured appendage grafted onto a sinner by a rancorous god as a mark of monstrosity. I digress.
Does anyone suffer with BDD or related issues who might be able to enlighten me a little?
It relates to one specific element of my body, nobody else I've spoken to about it can see anything 'wrong' although I would argue that's a weak test.
On some days it dominates my thoughts, worry and fear and disgust abound; I search for corrective treatments and remain unconvinced by any objective evidence that such treatments are unnecessary.
I don't know whether I meet the criteria for a 'disorder' or whether this thought pattern is better described as a facet of a complex spectrum of trauma, it's not an area I've ever really dealt with before.
Looking at this part of my body is akin to living in a funhouse. The people around me who see me directly give me their word that nothing is wrong, abnormal or disgusting, and yet since 'seeing is believing' I stare into the curvy mirrors and mentally vomit at the grotesque caricature staring back at me like some hideous disfigured appendage grafted onto a sinner by a rancorous god as a mark of monstrosity. I digress.
Does anyone suffer with BDD or related issues who might be able to enlighten me a little?