Battling with Drug addiction. No other choice but to CTB

[bhaloo]

I have been battling Crystal Meth addiction for last 2 years. I have been to rehabs and out patient programs and NA meeting.

However I cannot stop when the impulse to use comes. I'm desperate. The people I meet in my addiction are bad people and I'm sinking every day.

Anyone else in the same boat? I feel that for me CTB will be the only dignified way to exit.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I abused all things opiate when I was young. I eventually was on the methadone program. I quit that cold turkey, and was clean for 8 years. Then my memories came back. I havent used any illegal drugs, but have turned to the legal ones to cope. Thats my experience.

I can tell you drugs wasnt the reason for wanting to ctb. even though that life is great at creating misery. So I know what you are saying.

 

[bhaloo]

Yes life is a suffering for sure and it's unbearable but on Meth I set myself up for collision course with civilized society. I cannot stop it :( 80% of me will keep doing it no matter what the consequence … but the consequences are drastic. I see them and I'm so afraid