Back to working and rotting

[bing]

Just working a shit job wasting my life even more and then I go home and rot on my bed. I have literally no friends.

There is no escaping this.

I fucking hate my shit life. I want to die but I can't overcome survival instinct. I'm trapped as a slave.

I want to just give up and live off my parents or whatever. I think I have schizophrenia without delusions from my mom. People are all hostile to me and don't want me around and are alienating me.

Idk why I'm working at all. I should just lay down and fucking rot and die. It's better than torturing myself daily. This is my dumbass parents fault and it's over for me.

 

[hungry_ghost]

Are you able to look for a different job?

People are all hostile to me and don't want me around and are alienating me.

Fuck those people.

 

[lessonlearned]

im sorry to hear that. i wish i was able to get an interview. i feel like without working i won't be able to get myself out of this hole that im in. but then again maybe i should just give up anyway

 

[bing]

Are you able to look for a different job?


Fuck those people.

No I can't. I'm going to get another job actually because I have a 5 year goal to be a physician assistant. Idk if it will get me anything in life though.

My life feels fucked tbh. I'm suicidal every day. Completely isolated

im sorry to hear that. i wish i was able to get an interview. i feel like without working i won't be able to get myself out of this hole that im in. but then again maybe i should just give up anyway

You can work in a factory like me. They accept almost everyone. It fucking sucks though

 

[veryhappyhuman]

Does the job keep your mind off ctb/depressive thoughts while you work? If so it's useful for something at least I guess.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds very awful what you have to endure, I'm sorry that you suffer. I know that it can be awful living a life that you hate and it is sad how so many people are disadvantaged through no fault of their own. Existence really is so horrifying. I hope that in whatever happens, you find some relief from what you are going through.

 

[HopefulButPrepared]

Just working a shit job wasting my life even more and then I go home and rot on my bed. I have literally no friends.

There is no escaping this.

I fucking hate my shit life. I want to die but I can't overcome survival instinct. I'm trapped as a slave.

I want to just give up and live off my parents or whatever. I think I have schizophrenia without delusions from my mom. People are all hostile to me and don't want me around and are alienating me.

Idk why I'm working at all. I should just lay down and fucking rot and die. It's better than torturing myself daily. This is my dumbass parents fault and it's over for me.

can you get a proper diagnosis and go on benefits and just watch TV all day? Or make yourself homeless, live in a van, then go on benefits? Just get the fuck out of work somehow?

 

[Hope:-)]

I'm impressed that you feel like that and have a job xx

 

[Judy Garland]

I know exactly how you feel Bing. I WAS working and rotting throughout my life, now I'm just rotting and not working. I can't hold on either. I'm planning to die later in the month because the pain is so deep and painful.