Back to hanging it is...

[sadsamantha]

I have been posting on here excessively about my suicide attempts and the reasons I don't want to live anymore. I am sure I sound like a broken record and I'm pretty sure nobody cares, but this is still a good place to vent because there is literally no other place on the planet that I can talk about these issues without the risk of being psychiatrically hospitalized which would not solve any of my issues and would only make my situation even worse. If by chance you have been following my posts, you know that I tried overdosing two weeks in a row after trying unsuccessfully to hang myself multiple times in a row. Newsflash, it didn't work. Much to my dismay, I'm still here. Anyways, two weeks ago, I took all my sleeping pills (benzos). It put me in a very deep sleep for a day but that was about it. Last week, I took it a huge risk and ingested 2000mg of Adderall. This did a little more damage than the sleeping pills, but I was still back to normal after a couple of days. So, it really does look like hanging is absolutely my only option and I am literally on my knees begging God to give me the strength to finally go through with it. I can't even say it's SI that stops me with this method because I am 100% certain that I want to die. I was able to down pills with no problem at all, never felt any panic, and felt at peace even when I was sure I was having a heart attack from the overdose. I never had even the slightest desire to call for help when that was happening. But I'm sure this is because I was laying in my bed, instead of being up in the air choking to death.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly hate how difficult it is to finally leave this hellish world, to me it certainly is so cruel how we cannot just pass away in peace without risks, suicidal people don't deserve to be punished by being forced into some kind of horrific hospital.
I do admire those who have the courage to go through with hanging as it really sounds like such an awful, risky and difficult to succeed with method to me, it really does make it sound much easier when you hear of all those people managing to succeed with it, I envy those people. But anyway it really sounds like you've suffered so much and it sounds so horrible to me failing ctb so I hope that you eventually find the freedom that you are looking for, best wishes.

 

[Worndown]

This is not optimistic, but when the time is right, you will do it.

 

[woknows]

Don't eat random pills, it is more likely you gonna experience some nasty adverse effects and be in a worse situation than before.

 

[my-end]

After watching some videos, I don't think it's as bad as we think. The person passes out nearly immediately, a couple of seconds. It's probably the most misunderstood method and other than a gun it's probably the fastest.

 

[OceanBlue]

"So, it really does look like hanging is absolutely my only option and I am literally on my knees begging God to give me the strength to finally go through with it"

I understand, everything was ready and I was too scared let go. Pro-living warriors really force us to go through the scariest shit, I wish it was different.

 

[Born2bealoser]

No one is talking how Robin Williams hung himself from the doot handle. Just get really f'd up, put a belt on your neck and other on a door, Pass out... Dacid Cardine did something similar, Anthony Boudaine did too

 

[Born2bealoser]

Its either the gun, bridge, or hanging yourself.

 

[SenseOfLoss]

No one is talking how Robin Williams hung himself from the doot handle. Just get really f'd up, put a belt on your neck and other on a door, Pass out... Dacid Cardine did something similar, Anthony Boudaine did too

It seems simple, but it is definitely not. It is very difficult to practice partial hanging. Either you don't hit the carotid arteries, or if you do, your SI kicks in....

 

[OceanBlue]

No one is talking how Robin Williams hung himself from the doot handle. Just get really f'd up, put a belt on your neck and other on a door, Pass out... Dacid Cardine did something similar, Anthony Boudaine did too

Yeah, maybe you're right, it could help being less conscious.

 

[SHpr0]

someone where i live hung himself recently. i think it might be a better option than jumping. im not sure