Baby Steps

[Wildsages]

I have been thinking of this for such a long time and I don't know if I'm ready, but I'm ready to admit to thinking about it. Much as I like to think of myself as a Buffy, a kick-ass, fearless person, I don't know if i'm fearless enough to do this. Is anyone?

 

[Crushed_Innocence]

When we decide the time is right.... yes.

 

[Wildsages]

When we decide the time is right.... yes.

I guess you can say that, although, how would you know your time is right? By all means I have so many things i want to do with my life before I ctb but I have barriers causing me not be able to. So will you know when you feel like everything is succeeded in our life or would you know when your life is complete shit and you'll never complete the things you desire?

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I guess you can say that, although, how would you know your time is right? By all means I have so many things i want to do with my life before I ctb but I have barriers causing me not be able to. So will you know when you feel like everything is succeeded in our life or would you know when your life is complete shit and you'll never complete the things you desire?

I know my time is soon due to mental turmoil and physically agony. I am only holding out for the holidays and my parent's birthdays. My dad's is two days before mine... You will know. It's clear it isn't your time yet.

 

[Rachel74]

See I thought I had the right time but I didn't so I rushed and it went tits up. Now if it ever happens I'll let I won't plan it x

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I personally believe there is no way to know when the time is right. We all make decisions in life that may be right or wrong. As soon as the decision is made one door opens and another closes. When you ctb you close all the doors forever. That's why it's so hard. I wish it was different but life is fecking tough and death is even tougher.

 

[Crushed_Innocence]

I guess you can say that, although, how would you know your time is right? By all means I have so many things i want to do with my life before I ctb but I have barriers causing me not be able to. So will you know when you feel like everything is succeeded in our life or would you know when your life is complete shit and you'll never complete the things you desire?

I feel like I know that no matter what I would like to have in life, I dont have the ability or desire to achieve it. SO for me, I know the time is getting closer because I am getting more bitter, more angry, more resentful...... More unwilling to change a damn thing. But to allow the darkness to take me over and I have stopped fighting for my life.

Its when I realize that in order to have the life I dream of in my heart that I WOULD HAVE TO FIGHT FOR IT. And i Am sick of fucking fighting. I think once a persons desire to fight, to exert effort goes, they are very close.

 

[trynacbt]

I feel like I know that no matter what I would like to have in life, I dont have the ability or desire to achieve it. SO for me, I know the time is getting closer because I am getting more bitter, more angry, more resentful...... More unwilling to change a damn thing. But to allow the darkness to take me over and I have stopped fighting for my life.

Its when I realize that in order to have the life I dream of in my heart that I WOULD HAVE TO FIGHT FOR IT. And i Am sick of fucking fighting. I think once a persons desire to fight, to exert effort goes, they are very close.

This is so relatable !!! Took the words outta my mouth.