These photos were taken 6 days before he killed himself. He looks tired but he smiles. And I'm feeling like him. I'm tired of faking smiles. Don't know if it's ok to post photos of celebs here. I'm tired of using this fucking mask.
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
He didn't have a mask. He couldn't handle the business. Never could. Wanted to get out but couldn't. He did try.
Mustkeyknow
Experienced
- Feb 8, 2020
- 275
Biggie
Member
- Feb 24, 2020
- 73
The loss of Avicii is very sad indeed, I love his music.
I think your post is a valid one and just goes to show that you have no idea what is going on behind closed doors. Most of us put on a mask to protect the others around us and because it is easier to say 'I'm fine' then actually explain what is wrong. There are such stigmas around having a mental health condition still.
However, I hope you feel that you don't have to wear that mask here and that you can speak your mind without being judged by others or pretending to be something you are not. This is a safe space!
I think your post is a valid one and just goes to show that you have no idea what is going on behind closed doors. Most of us put on a mask to protect the others around us and because it is easier to say 'I'm fine' then actually explain what is wrong. There are such stigmas around having a mental health condition still.
However, I hope you feel that you don't have to wear that mask here and that you can speak your mind without being judged by others or pretending to be something you are not. This is a safe space!
On the other hand I'm unable to smile for a long time, everytime I take pictures even in my work everyone is smiling but me
Fragile
Broken
- Jul 7, 2019
- 1,496
faking a smile is hard, but it gets easier when you know you are living your final days.
i remember being at my "happiest" in the days leading to my first attempt. there is a sense of calm and carefree attitude, it helps when you need to put up an empty smile. it may not be the same for everyone, but it felt that way for me.
i remember being at my "happiest" in the days leading to my first attempt. there is a sense of calm and carefree attitude, it helps when you need to put up an empty smile. it may not be the same for everyone, but it felt that way for me.
mpnf
Mental anguish..no more please.
- Oct 3, 2019
- 190
For me not to protect the others but to "protect" me from them. If they discover your Achilles heel, then you are fucked up. They'll use it against you one way or another.
Meretlein
Moderator
- Feb 15, 2019
- 1,199
His method was so brutal. He slit his throat with a broken wine bottle.
RIP.
RIP.
Alec
Wizard
- Apr 22, 2019
- 681
When I saw his name on a thread I shuddered. The way he did terrifies me. It must've been so fucking painful!!! But physical pain is not what terrifies me the most about the method he used, it's the pain he must've been in to make him feel so desperate to get out to the point where he inflicted such horrific pain on his body, by himself, by his own hands and his own will!!!! I can't I simply can't imagine the horrors he felt to get him to do this. It's such a violent way. I love his music, my favorite is "Wake Me Up"
I don't mean to offend you, I know you are a good person
I don't like it when people make assumptions. Yes we were all told that he was struggling with the business and wanted a break and to have less work to enjoy life more, but it doesn't mean that there wasn't anything else going on. It doesn't mean that he didn't have these thoughts his whole life in one form or another. It doesn't mean he didn't have any other trouble and problems. We don't know, we can't know, so to reduce his whole life and his suicide and the reason behind it to just one sentence and one thing, especially when we all are literally no one, and we had no contact with him whatsoever, is just not right.
I don't mean to offend you, I know you are a good person
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TeenIdle
Member
- Feb 29, 2020
- 99
I miss Avicii so much. He was one of my faves and brightened some of my days with his music. I'll be ctb in April a beautiful month, like him.
waterbottleman
Not a person
- Sep 30, 2019
- 721
You never know how a person is really feeling just by looking at them or by how they act.
I hide my depression very well, everyone who I've ever heard comment about me irl say how chill and carefree I am. What they don't know is that part of the reason why I'm so "chill" is because severe depression year after year has left me with low energy and an indifference to everything. But I hide my sadness very well, not one person irl suspects that I'm depressed.
I hide my depression very well, everyone who I've ever heard comment about me irl say how chill and carefree I am. What they don't know is that part of the reason why I'm so "chill" is because severe depression year after year has left me with low energy and an indifference to everything. But I hide my sadness very well, not one person irl suspects that I'm depressed.
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
Throwmyselfaway
Not gone yet but soon
- Jan 14, 2020
- 798
Holy hell! I didn't realize that's how he went. Poor guy :(
selfhater
Experienced
- Mar 1, 2020
- 222
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
I didn't realize that either! My God, u have to b extremely desperate to do something like that! Poor soul..
Alec
Wizard
- Apr 22, 2019
- 681
I was extremely shocked when I found out how he went, it sounds so horrible, he must've been in such pain in his life to do something like that, and the bravery it took to do it I can't even imagine
I felt that too
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
Seriously!! Damm...I feel so bad for his family. To realize now how sad n desperate he was...
