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Cauliflour

Cauliflour

The one who doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
216
I changed up how I write my diary entries on the 26th May and I started counting all the thoughts that I think a normal person would think isn't healthy. Y'know, like desires to harm one's self, suicide, that kind of stuff. Didn't measure the intensitys but here's what I've written for every entry so I can calculate averages.

26/05: 3 Maths
27/05: 0
28/05: 0
29-30/05: 1
31/05: 0
01/06: 2
02/06: "too many to count" (that entry is so concerning lol)
03/06: "about 7 I think"
04/06: 1
05/06: 1
06/06: 1
07-08/06: 2
09/06: 1
10/06: 3
11/06: 0
12/06: 2
13/06: 10
14/06: 1
15-16/06: 1
17/06: 5

Mean (not including 02/06) is 1.86 fucked up thoughts per day.
Median is 1.
Mode is 1.
Range is 10.

I have a problem, don't I?

I'm kinda disappointed tbh. Not enough big numbers.
 
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VoidButterfly

VoidButterfly

Flitterby
May 17, 2025
83
I think that's very interesting data and I'm certain it's significantly above normal.
 
Cauliflour

Cauliflour

The one who doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
216
update: 17/06 is now 7. The new mean is 1.95.
I think that's very interesting data and I'm certain it's significantly above normal.
You can tell which days I self harmed just from the numbers. No idea what was going on in early June though. I drew this on the 2nd, idk if that has any sort of meaning:
I am sane
update: 17/06 is now 8. The new mean is 2.04.
9...
 
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