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Dreamland6947

Dreamland6947

Archivist
Oct 19, 2025
22
So I recently made a post about my SN plan.
But I'm running into issues with my SN provider who suddenly doesn't want to work anymore, bad timing for me (they stopped for everyone)

So I was considering if I should push into the SN path (I'm in Western Europe for availability)
Or try and go to another one and what would you say is viable for me:

Little information of me: I have been diagnosed with schizo-affective, ASD, ADHD and OCD.
I have access to quite a few meds:
- Olanzapine, Clozapine, Risperidone
- Diazepam(Valium), Bromazepam, Xanax
- Methylphenidate
- Fluoxetine, Paxil
- Actiskenan 20mg (Morphine)
- Pregabalin

I also have some other chemicals, though I'm unsure if I can say them here

I have some Omeprazole laying around a few bottles of amitryptiline

These days I'm on:
54mg of Methylphenidate morning + 32Mg booster in the afternoon
60mg Fluoxetine
10mg Valium morning, 20mg at night
8mg Risperidone at night
6mg Bromazepam if needed

I'm still living at my parents despite being an adult, but there are days where I can be alone (A whole day, sometimes a weekend)

The exit bag path doesn't seem good to me (Feel free to tell otherwise and share you thoughts :))
Ligature might sound good? By I have Dyspraxia too and I fear I won't be able to tie stuff
CO path, might be, be I'm unsure if I can do the logistics discretly enough
I need to read more about SA but that might be a path


What would you recommand? i'm open that talk about anything
 
NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
2,516
Do you mean SN in your title? You wrote CN.
 
Dreamland6947

Dreamland6947

Archivist
Oct 19, 2025
22
I didn't see anything against it in the rules so here it goes.

I have some PCP available, I've heard that it can potenciate opioids
I also have 4-HO-MIPT which is a psychedelic and stimulant (idk if that plays in anything)
 
Dreamland6947

Dreamland6947

Archivist
Oct 19, 2025
22
Also if anyone has info on SN sourcing in Western Europe feel free to PM me
 

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