
amnotreal
Student
- Oct 20, 2019
- 137
in the state where I live they say that an autopsy has to happen for suspected ctb or known ctb and for anyone found more than 24 hours after the fact. i have some awful undiagnosed medical condition or maybe it is all endometriosis growing in weird places since i have endometriosis diagnosed.
i don't want to harm my kids by ctb but if what i have is genetic and doctors never seem to grasp how bad it is or be willing to help then i probably hurt them more by not ctb since i cry so much and am in so much pain. i start to wonder if the only way to be a good mom is to ctb so an autopsy can figure out what is wrong.
everytime i go to the doctor and have more tests i feel more and more like i just need to ctb but i am such a coward. i don't want to hurt my kids ever but by being alive i am just a huge burden.
i don't want to harm my kids by ctb but if what i have is genetic and doctors never seem to grasp how bad it is or be willing to help then i probably hurt them more by not ctb since i cry so much and am in so much pain. i start to wonder if the only way to be a good mom is to ctb so an autopsy can figure out what is wrong.
everytime i go to the doctor and have more tests i feel more and more like i just need to ctb but i am such a coward. i don't want to hurt my kids ever but by being alive i am just a huge burden.