Hikikomori1

Hikikomori1

Experienced
Mar 27, 2023
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If you are on the spectrum you can post in this thread.

I have been diagnosed since i was very young.
 
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loyalskateboard

loyalskateboard

Specialist
May 4, 2023
339
I'm diagnosed with level 2 ASD. As a child:
  • My school and some family suspected I had Aspergers
  • My local doctor suspected I had ASD
  • A psychiatrist said I had traits of ASD
  • A couple of support workers suspected ASD

My therapy/mental health support from ages 8-17 was focused on ptsd so I never had a full assessment until I was 18. Currently I have dozens upon dozens of pages from professionals describing my ASD. My psychologist, another psychologist, my psychiatrist, and an occupational therapist. It's nice to understand why I struggle with certain things and why (for example) exposure therapy wouldn't help me get outside. I've actually made some progress in making life more tolerable. Only slightly, but it's better than nothing.

It sucks being autistic. I wish I wasn't. At the same time, I wouldn't be me. I don't know. If I were reincarnated I'd want to be neurotypical. It has caused me so much pain and life is extremely difficult. There are some benefits but idk. It's hard.
 
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Hikikomori1

Hikikomori1

Experienced
Mar 27, 2023
289
It sucks being autistic. I wish I wasn't. At the same time, I wouldn't be me. I don't know. If I were reincarnated I'd want to be neurotypical. It has caused me so much pain and life is extremely difficult. There are some benefits but idk. It's hard.

I can completely relate.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,299
I was also diagnosed when I was very young, in my case it's Aspergers but I just see it as not being meant for existing here, I could never wish to exist in this dreadful world.
 
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Hikikomori1

Hikikomori1

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Mar 27, 2023
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I was also diagnosed when I was very young, in my case it's Aspergers but I just see it as not being meant for existing here, I could never wish to exist in this dreadful world.

I also have Aspergers.
 
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AllFoxedOut

AllFoxedOut

Arcanist
Jun 7, 2023
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i have ASD, it has made my life very difficult as I struggle to make and maintain friendships especially irl. it has been about 11 years since I had a good irl friend. I don't go outside much and have failed every attempt at schooling or work I've ever tried.
 
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Professor K

Professor K

your eyes vacant and stained
Feb 9, 2023
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i guess i'll need to make an update on here later regarding this topic.

my parents were never attentive and considered any of my behaviour normal to the extent where i was respecting their rules, they were also very anti therapy/diagnosis.
my brothers and other adults on the other hand would tell my parents that i was often all alone at (primary) school.
the more i grew up and the more i started to appear as defective and abnormal.

it was in middle school that my teacher and nurse convinced my parents to seek professional help which, unfortunately, didn't work because i wouldn't talk at all and the therapists couldn't wait so much.
after a while, my first time talking to them automatically led me straight into a psychiatric hospital as i had overshared with credulity, thinking that it was the right place for such conversations but i was wrong.

after many years of therapy sessions, examinations, tests etc, many different professionnals came into the same conclusion, suspecting ASD to be the root of my problems.
eventually, a dossier was sent to a center specialized in neurodivergence.
here in France you have to wait 9 months to a year tp get an appointment and a day-long testing, it's been 7 months so i'm still waiting.

in a way, i feel that it is too late for the diagnosis to be of any utility but i also want to know if it is in fact autism or something else or nothing at all but plain dysfunction.
and in a way, honestly it really would be the x to the equation, even all my precedent diagnosis were labeled ''atypical''.
 
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Silent_cries

Silent_cries

I wish I could delete my trauma...
Aug 10, 2021
1,343
I just freaked out and hit and kicked somebody bc someone made me follow a rule I hadn't been informed of before witch got too unpredictable to me. I hate when I overreact so badly to ridiculous stuff like that. Life with an autistic brain, am I right?
 

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