Venting Attempted today via amygdalin

[walkawayfromlite]

Mixed crushed bitter apricot kernels into fruit juice with added sweetner.
I only had 2 sips it made my drug induced hallucinations worse for little bit and so i stopped and didnt finish it. i wish there were another way without the risk of being found and saved which is why i wont hang my self.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just wanting a way to be free from this existence, it's just so cruel to me how trying to die can go wrong and lead to worse suffering, such happening is exactly what I personally fear, I wish there's the option to simply cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[walkawayfromlite]

Thank you kind soul.

 

[RinneOfAragon]

Hi new member @walkawayfromlite. I thought about Amygdalin via apricot kernels also. I heard about it way back when my mum dad terminal cancer. I read that people claimed it cured their cancer. My mum didn't take any (you are only supposed to eat 2-3 kernels max a day) as the lead oncologist dissuaded her from taking any alternative remedies; even though the chemo she was on was a shot in the dark (they didn't know the origin of the cancer).
According to https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0196064498700770
The cyanide content of apricot kernels ranges from . 122 to 4.09 mg/g and most recently was reported to be 2.92 mg/g. The reported average lethal dose of cyanide in humans has ranged from 50 to 60 mg4 to 1.52 mg/kg (106 mg for a 70-kg adult),5 and the lowest reported fatal dose was . 56 mg/kg.
I wasn't sure if it was worth trying. I can't see many people intentionally poisoning themselves this way only seen accidental cases. I'm so sorry you are struggling and that the kernels made your hallucinations worse . I sincerely hope you are doing better now? Sending you my best wishes!