Method ATTEMPT UPDATE: with receipts.

[ShinyScissors]

My attempt I recorded in my last post 10/2024 was almost successful. I took around 2.5 g of trazodone, fasted, drank a lot of hard liquor. It was peaceful. I was awake and then I wasn't, no pain. I went unconscious and I could not be resuscitated on scene, even after having narcan administered. Hours later I woke up in the hospital with 3 IVs and a breathing tube. I was unresponsive to commands until the following day.

I never felt pain during my recovery but I will say the side effects were awful. I could not move or control my body for 2 days, so I ended up soiling myself in the bed and I couldn't feed myself. I was thirstier than I have ever been but I couldn't drink. I was also extremely cold. The staff were very rude and neglectful, no one would help me until the second day a nice nurse helped me drink and use the bathroom. My social worker was definitely the foulest, she treated me like an inconvenience.

I'm going to attempt again but with more precautions to make sure it's lethal. I'm looking to do so within the next 2 weeks. I posted to the partners thread

 

[itsmeagain]

Oh darling… Please be careful. I'm sorry people treated you like such a nuisance even though you were in so much pain. To let life drag you off to sleep sounds beautiful, but please do be careful. Welcome back for now, but I hope you find your peace.

 

[Blueberry Panic]

Would you recommend this method?
I once tried overdosing on trazodone but all it did was make me feel like I was on the verge of having a seizure for like 2 days straight.

 

[imOK]

People who apparently don't even bother spellchecking the documents they typed out on your case being rude and acting like they can't be bothered? Man that's hard to believe.

Last thing I'd want is to survive. You're there in a compromised state because - well, you almost died - and "on the side" you get to deal with being a "free-for-all" for that specific kind of people to wag their fingers at and be judgmental about. No thank you.

From all I read about meds - even on this very forum - they're just a horribly risky way to do things, no matter which. I wouldn't risk that coin toss personally but better luck to you next time, at any rate.

 

[ShinyScissors]

People who apparently don't even bother spellchecking the documents they typed out on your case being rude and acting like they can't be bothered? Man that's hard to believe.

Last thing I'd want is to survive. You're there in a compromised state because - well, you almost died - and "on the side" you get to deal with being a "free-for-all" for that specific kind of people to wag their fingers at and be judgmental about. No thank you.

From all I read about meds - even on this very forum - they're just a horribly risky way to do things, no matter which. I wouldn't risk that coin toss personally but better luck to you next time, at any rate.

Yea and I was found on a bridge, not the street. I noticed several discrepancies. One document stated I couldn't walk and another said my motor skills were perfectly intact. My social worker recorded that I was uncooperative and irritable. No shit, she asked me to stand up and walk. I couldn't do anything on my own and the hospital lights were burning out my eyes.
I took a large dose and had alcohol to maximize effects. I read somewhere that 4g+ is ideal, you probably didn't take enough. Please be careful, not enough will mess you up.

Would you recommend this method?
I once tried overdosing on trazodone but all it did was make me feel like I was on the verge of having a seizure for like 2 days straight.

 

[CatLvr]

Bless your heart. I, too, am sorry you were treated so poorly. And then "health professionals" wonder why we don't confide in them.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

The location where the incident occured was in the street?

 

[hang in there]

Yea and I was found on a bridge, not the street. I noticed several discrepancies. One document stated I couldn't walk and another said my motor skills were perfectly intact. My social worker recorded that I was uncooperative and irritable. No shit, she asked me to stand up and walk. I couldn't do anything on my own and the hospital lights were burning out my eyes.
I took a large dose and had alcohol to maximize effects. I read somewhere that 4g+ is ideal, you probably didn't take enough. Please be careful, not enough will mess you up.

>I noticed several discrepancies. One document stated I couldn't walk and another said my motor skills were perfectly intact.
I work in healthcare, the documents they fill out are prefilled with descriptions within normal limits, and only say otherwise if they are intentionally filled out. When someone is evaluating a patient for a specific issue they will not usually take time to thoroughly fill out a chart unless they have time or think it's relevant that that specific instance of assessment.

 

[Pale_Rider]

So I have a crazy story. They used memory blockers on me in NYC. I drank 346 mgs of methadone. They found me, revived me , and bullied me into counseling. So keep your eyes open. They aren't gonna forget