At the end of the day, my reasoning for suicide will always be misunderstood

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

If I do ever go through with suicide, I will most surely leave behind notes
Many notes, to everyone who abused and hurt me
But even then, they will blame it on something else
"she died because of xyz" they'll say
Only because it will stop them from taking accountability from the fact that their actions caused my death
In the end I will never win and my story won't matter
But....I guess that'll just prove I was never loved or valued by anyone anyways
I think...many of us can relate to people not giving a shit about us
I don't think that everyone is loved
Some people are just used and abused with no one to care
And I am one of them
I don't want a funeral when I die
I just want to die knowing the truth
Nobody cared

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Every. Single. Reason. You. Have. For. Wanting. To. Die. MATTERS.

I can promise you that you are loved. By me, by other users. Perhaps some quiet and hidden people you may know.

Yes, I believe it's possible that some people just aren't loved by anybody, but you'd have to be a pretty awful person who also doesn't socialize or only treats others like garbage.

You sound like such a sweet person. It breaks my heart to know you are suffering to the point of exterminating your very being.

Please. If you need to chat, if you need a friend, someone to give you love... I am here. x

 

[rhiino]

In the end I will never win and my story won't matter

But isn't it a win that you will be free of any pain and don't have to endure anything anymore?

 

[Deleted member 17949]

I could write a very detailed description of how I feel and why I want to die and people still just wouldn't understand. People can't empathise with and process feelings that they've never felt.

 

[stillweary]

I feel the same way. That's why I think it's odd to put a lot of effort into a note. Even if people read it, in the end they'll just create whatever narrative they want and slap it on you regardless of accuracy.

 

[Chiyuki99]

Do you really want to punish yourself for other people's mistakes hun?

 

[rhiino]

@Chiyuki99
Once you are broken, suicide is not a punishment but a relief for your tortured soul.

 

[Deleted member 19276]

This. No matter what, the people that caused the problems will get away with it.
Outside of this place, SS, no one cares, it is the most powerful and disturbing truth.
I wish, I so wish there was a way to make them pay. For what they did to you, for what they did to all of us...

 

[Kevin_theFrog]

This. No matter what, the people that caused the problems will get away with it.
Outside of this place, SS, no one cares, it is the most powerful and disturbing truth.
I wish, I so wish there was a way to make them pay. For what they did to you, for what they did to all of us...

That's why everyone's lucky ss exists in the first place imo. If it didn't we wouldn't have anything to turn to. There could be a chance we would've been silenced, since everyone on mainstream sites is uncomfortable w depression or suicide sadly

 

[Deleted member 19276]

That's why everyone's lucky ss exists in the first place imo. If it didn't we wouldn't have anything to turn to. There could be a chance we would've been silenced, since everyone on mainstream sites is uncomfortable w depression or suicide sadly

Very true. And yet they call us the cowards for wanting to quit... They are the cowards for wanting to shut us down. And for ignoring what depression and other illnesses similar to that are like.

 

[stillweary]

Very true. And yet they call us the cowards for wanting to quit... They are the cowards for wanting to shut us down. And for ignoring what depression and other illnesses similar to that are like.

Completely agree. The accusation of cowardice is severely misplaced. They're too cowardly to even look at the darkness most of us walk through every single day.

 

[Deleted member 19276]

Completely agree. The accusation of cowardice is severely misplaced. They're too cowardly to even look at the darkness most of us walk through every single day.

Yeah, it's like a huge surprise to them when the realization hits that the world is not puppies and rainbows too. They can honestly be pathetic with that sort of behavior of theirs that everything will be better. Most of the time, things end up grim. Too grim.