At some point you come to the conclusion that suicide is the only solution

[BlueButterfly111]

In my journey to suicide I've reached many emotional points. I've come to the final one where I realize that suicide is the only solution. Now I've been suicidal on and off for the last years, and I've had this journey several times. You reach out for help so many times, try to share your pain with others, realize how alone you are. I've talked so much about my dead boyfriend online and to people in real life. I've tried to explain all of the pain, how much I miss him. But honestly I've reached the point where I truly realize nothing is gonna stop the pain, nothing is gonna get better. No one in real life cares that much, not really. I'm just ready to die. Ready to take matters into my own hands. It's the realization I have come to. I'm gonna try to enjoy my last days on Earth just thinking of him and spending time with him in my head. I don't care to vent about it anymore because it doesn't matter. It's peaceful when you come to this realization because you stop fighting to get help and you just accept your fate.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

I do believe that love is the most powerful thing in the universe. Good luck to you. Enjoy your last days, however long they are.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

I do believe that love is the most powerful thing in the universe. Good luck to you. Enjoy your last days, however long they are.

Thank you I agree with you, love truly is the most powerful thing in the universe, I realize that now more than ever. I'm just waiting for my sn to arrive, so it's only a matter of time hopefully!

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

We're all gonna have to face the same day eventually. The only thing that defers this day is suffering.

 

[nomoredolor]

Blue butterfly in case I don't talk to you again. I want you to know how much you have my love and support. I relate to your struggles and grief on such a deep level and I see your anguish and pain and longing to be reunited with your love. I wish that you could both be alive together once more. But I understand the only way to for you to be together again is in death. I know that it's the same for me and Jesse. The pain is infinite and suicide feels like the only way through. I'll miss seeing you on this website a lot. But I understand why you have to go. If I were IRL I would hug you and hold you so hard. I even wish we could go be with our loves together at the same time. Just know that I'm thinking of you both and my heart is with you. Please if you see him let Jesse know I'll be there soon.

My heart is with you. My heart is with you. My heart is with you.

Anna

 

[nembutaldream]

It's peaceful when you come to this realization because you stop fighting to get help and you just accept your fate.

I relate to this so much. It's so peaceful to just give up, and realize you were cooked from Day 1, and that it wasn't your fault.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just wish to be free from the pain and suffering of existing, peace is all I hope for, I hope that you find the freedom you are looking for, I wish you the best.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

Blue butterfly in case I don't talk to you again. I want you to know how much you have my love and support. I relate to your struggles and grief on such a deep level and I see your anguish and pain and longing to be reunited with your love. I wish that you could both be alive together once more. But I understand the only way to for you to be together again is in death. I know that it's the same for me and Jesse. The pain is infinite and suicide feels like the only way through. I'll miss seeing you on this website a lot. But I understand why you have to go. If I were IRL I would hug you and hold you so hard. I even wish we could go be with our loves together at the same time. Just know that I'm thinking of you both and my heart is with you. Please if you see him let Jesse know I'll be there soon.

My heart is with you. My heart is with you. My heart is with you.

Anna

Hey Anna, thank you so much for the heartfelt reply. I will probably make a goodbye post before I ctb if I can, whenever I do it. My sn still hasn't arrived yet. Just wanted to let you know that I'm not gone yet. But thank you so much again!