ctbgurl
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- Jan 24, 2023
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Why isn't Medical Assistance In Dying available in more areas? Especially more available to those with suicidal, homicidal, and/or violent urges..? This has crossed my mind numerous times in the past couple of years, and I'm yet to find a liable reasoning for it.
Why is the line drawn at death?
i've struggled with horrible and unimaginable fantasies since i was a very young girl, and throughout years of therapy and medication, i'm still unable to "shake" them. due to enduring SA and physical/mental abuse as a kid, i've always associated pain/death with sexual pleasure. my urges are hard to control even when i'm medicated and it's gotten very tiring for me. it's partly my fault because i have a very complicated view of trust, so i have a horrible habit of keeping certain things from my therapists/psychiatrists. Ive been doing it for years and i never plan on stopping, i'll die before i'm perceived as what i've worked so hard to cover up for all these years.
I've also struggled with suicidal tendencies since the ages of around 6-7, with my first attempt being at 7. sadly even to this day i can still say i've always had good reasoning for wanting to die.
Ultimately, i'm an awful person and i'm fully aware of that, so why can't i legally and peacefully enter my ending before something else happens? something possibly much worse. Why can't people who are totally self aware and coherent "call the shots" on their own death?
Why is the line drawn at death?
i've struggled with horrible and unimaginable fantasies since i was a very young girl, and throughout years of therapy and medication, i'm still unable to "shake" them. due to enduring SA and physical/mental abuse as a kid, i've always associated pain/death with sexual pleasure. my urges are hard to control even when i'm medicated and it's gotten very tiring for me. it's partly my fault because i have a very complicated view of trust, so i have a horrible habit of keeping certain things from my therapists/psychiatrists. Ive been doing it for years and i never plan on stopping, i'll die before i'm perceived as what i've worked so hard to cover up for all these years.
I've also struggled with suicidal tendencies since the ages of around 6-7, with my first attempt being at 7. sadly even to this day i can still say i've always had good reasoning for wanting to die.
Ultimately, i'm an awful person and i'm fully aware of that, so why can't i legally and peacefully enter my ending before something else happens? something possibly much worse. Why can't people who are totally self aware and coherent "call the shots" on their own death?
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And my immediate thought process was, "I'd love to do that for someone!"
