Discussion As members of SS, have you planned your CTB date?

[Xebsora29]

Has anyone planned the day they're going to attempt CTB or planning to go when ready? Just asking out of curiosity.
I don't have a set date, but I have a strong urge to do CTB soon. I'm determined to possibly do it this week.
I just know, I'm going to be gone before 2020 starts. Don't think I'll make it that far.

 

[WhyIsLife56]

Not yet but I'm in the planning process at the moment

 

[Rena rossy]

I have already planned my ctb date to be january 11. I have a reservation already for a hotel that will be paying on the same day and as soon as I receive my payment will be buying sn. I already have the antiemetics (my aunt had some prescribed not so long ago) and antiacids too. So I am ready.
Also, I already have the messages I will be sending on that day to my loved ones saved in my notes.

 

[Squiddy]

I don't have a set date, but if things get worse, I might just make one

 

[Despondent]

I don't have a set date, but if things get worse, I might just make one

Same here

 

[Morphinekiss]

No date, no set method. I take things one day at a time.

 

[goldenrods]

i'm planning just to go on impulse. i'm like a time bomb. something really just has to set me off
probably soon though - found out the love of my life has a new girlfriend. just waiting for my SN to arrive :p

 

[LMLN]

Do not have a specific date but a timeframe in mind. I'll know when its time.

 

[Skyview]

Waiting on my Meto to arrive which should be soon , I hope ! Wednesday my car will be gone and as soon as meto arrives , move out of my home . Plan to take a long train ride to somewhere to drink my SN .

I don't have a set date, but if things get worse, I might just make one

 

[brainpain2]

Yes! I have an approximate date of late spring. I do have a couple things I want to do including a trip I will somewhat enjoy but make my spouse very happy. I do feel bad about leaving him, I left him for a couple days and he was so distraught he pleaded with me in tears to come home. I mostly left because his frustration with the situation (my health and the resulting downfall) made him feel helpless and sometimes act though he resented me which he hasn't done since. I do believe that he will be free and happy once he gets used to the idea of being able to move on as he has so much going for him he deserves someone he thought he was getting with me.

I do not plan on seeing my next birthday and have had powdered N since 2016. I have been holding off for so long because of him and due to the fact I did get physically better, for awhile. Unfortunately due to my condition being chronic and the subsequent downfall (again) I have decided that it is not worth it to stick around and selfish to make my SO feel as though he is bound to being with me out of guilt.

I have been firm on my timeline for several months now:

 

[Moonicide]

I wanted to ctb before Christmas, but then decided to stick around as my friends were already planning the holidays with me. I've been packing and organizing my place as I get ready to ctb. I wanted to ctb before 2020 as it would be symbolic for me, but it doesn't look like it's going to be happening. I should be gone by January. I think about death every single day and I've fought off impulsive ctb thoughts... I'm hurting, but I know I need to leave this world on good terms for myself.

 

[Daffodil]

I have an interview for a dream job that realistically I probably won't get. I'm still holding onto a bit of hope though. If I don't get it, I will probably try to ctb as soon after - so within first half of 2020, ideally first quarter. Makes me sick to say it, and I wish I had another way out but can't think of one I want to live for.

 

[Bleak Stoic]

Sometime in 2020. No set date, when the time feels right I'll check out.

 

[EmptyMan]

Sometime in 2020. No set date, when the time feels right I'll check out.

Yo nigga

 

[Shivani]

I wish I could have ended it in this year so as to be gone in the same year as my SO, but due to certain family circumstances have to do it early next year sometime

 

[Flume]

No I don't see any point why I should, when it's time it's time simple as that.

 

[JustAnotherSuicider]

Currently I don't have specific date, I'm still considering various methods and making preparations. When I will finally decide how I want to CTB then I think I will choose specific date to do this. I don't want to do this as an impulse, I want to have everything planned and be well prepared for that moment, don't want to wake up in emergency room.

 

[R_N]

Early 2020 I hope.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Have to be next year before April

 

[Enshadowed]

I have currently bought everything and am waiting for it all to arrive now. Don't have a specific date set but I think it will be within a month or two. Spending some time getting things in order now and tying up some loose ends.

 

[Finis Autem Spero]

Kind of. If I don't get a job before the end of January, then I'm out.

Maybe on the 18th, for some paternal symmetry.

 

[Daffodil]

Kind of. If I don't get a job before the end of January, then I'm out.

Maybe on the 18th, for some paternal symmetry.

I'm also out of a job and that's part of my reason for wanting to leave. It's also given me time to reflect on what I want vs don't want, and realize what I want probably won't occur. Most people suffer in life more than they admit to themselves, not sure why everyone else is hanging on.

 

[ARW3N]

No, I haven't planned my CTB date. It would be much easier if CTB was legalised and we could just go to some clinic somewhere and take pentobarbital.

 

[Hunter100]

Yo nigga

I've read some of your posts and just wondering why you are bringing this level of immaturity to this forum? Jesus Christ, you're 18 yrs old. Old enough to know better.

 

[EmptyMan]

I've read some of your posts and just wondering why you are bringing this level of immaturity to this forum? Jesus Christ, you're 18 yrs old. Old enough to know better.

That's the only low quality post I can think of tbh
And it was more a inside joke since I know him
But I'll stop :)