I think/to me what really matters is not the memory but the feeling/suffering when it happens
Just like if reincarnation is real, then it doesnt matter if you suffer now /get mutilated because later you wont remember about it?
It still matters to me, i still dont want it its still painfully scary
The point is the suffering when it happens.
despite remembering it after it or not.
Like anesthesia awareness in surgery is scary also, despite that they should forget the memory because of the drug. A few uncommon cases end up having some part/little of their memory back can recall the horror
Or people who commit rape using the drug, when it happens the victim still suffer but cant recollect the memory after that
Not having a memory of it will be like it never happened, from your perspective.
I remember seeing a video of a guy who went skiing down a steep mountain and as soon as he started, he lost control and tumbled down some 1000 feet like a rag doll. His friends were able to get him to a hospital where he was in a coma for several days. When he awoke and was told what had happened, he couldn't believe it and had no memory beyond putting his skis in the car that morning. Everything else was blanked out. When he saw the video his friend took, from his perspective, it was like watching
someone else fall down a mountain, not him, because he had no memory of it.
So whatever pain and suffering he felt (if any)
while it was happening in real time was totally forgotten, so it didn't matter to him after he recovered. The only pain he felt was during recovery and rehab. Had he died that day, he would have felt (and remembered) nothing at all.
I had just heard of a young boy, about 12 or so, who was struck by lightning
a couple of weeks ago. Local TV news had an interview with him and his family, and when he woke up after being in a coma for a day or 2, he had no idea what happened, where he was, or how he got there. When told he was hit by a bolt of lightning, he said "NO WAY!!!?!?" he couldn't believe it! He had no memory of anything after being hit and before waking up. Total blank out. He too could have died and would have felt and known nothing.
Yes, I have heard that there are very rare cases of people who have had awareness during surgery and that is a whole different thing because, for whatever reason, the drugs used did not block the pain and/or the memory. So in cases like that, I agree, that would be scary! But that has nothing to do with a peaceful passing drinking N.
Regarding those who
commit a crime, like rape, while on some drug and do not remember that they raped another person, is another context. What they did actually happened and they did it to another person and they will suffer the consequences of their crime, as they should, regardless if they remember doing it or not.
If one is the
victim of a crime, like rape, and was drugged, and therefore does not remember being raped, that changes nothing in this context either because their rights were violated, and some memory and/or knowledge of being personally victimized will always stay with that person.