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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
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I mean, do you think about OCD 100% of the time ? When you are at home, when you go outside ? When you are with people ?

I have a very specific OCD but I'm not comfortable to talk about, even here (because it's very humiliating). This OCD came after a trauma that gave me PTSD. I have other OCD more manageable like verification OCD or calculating numbers mentally.

So I just wanted to know if your OCD is present ALL the time, like a monster that never leaves you ? And is your OCD related to a trauma ?

Thanks
 
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offwaff

offwaff

New Member
Aug 31, 2026
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I'm anxious all the time. I don't eat good food and that makes me anxious. I don't think I've done well at school and that makes me anxious. I'm OCD but it's the anxiety that is with me 100%.
 
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Dot

Dot

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Sep 26, 2021
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Slf livd wth versn of OCD calld POCD whch ws OCD w/o th/ xternl rituls

= startd aftr an argmnt wth parntr bcse slf ws alwys terrfid of gttng in trble & slf dd smethng whch mde hm angry

Wht = frstr8tng = gt slf bult up courge 2 tll hm wht slf dd whn h/ ws relaxd & th/ nxt dy h/ dd nt remmbr n.e.thng tht slf tld hm othr thn 'h/ hd a feelng abt smethng' & b/ tht pnt slf ws w scard 2 tll hm agn s/ endd up playng thngs dwn untl ws xposd

S/ own POCD ws mre a prevs issu b-ing triggrd in wy whch ws 2 mch fr slf 2 cpe wth

Slf symptms hve changd bcse of th/ hypnoss on tp of trma & nervs systm trappd in terrr st8 bt th/ undr-lyng terrr whch ws drivng evrythng = stll trappd in slf systm

Hwevr whn slf hd as 'jst' POCD th/ thghts wre obsessve all dy evry dy
 
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bl33ding_heart

bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
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My ocd is always present, almost all the time every single day. It's not my main reason for being suicidal but it only makes everything so much worse for me.
 
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