Are your loved ones aware of your SaSu account?

[water bunny]

I feel somewhat guilty keeping this account a secret from the people who care alot about me. I'm curious to know if any of you have told a close friend / partner about your account and their reactions (i'm not planning to reveal anytime soon though, maybe i'll add it in my note if i ctb)

 

[Enlighten]

Nobody close to me knows about it & i think that will be the case for most people. There is nothing wrong with just being here to vent a bit in a way you could otherwise not do. You are better off not telling them, they will definetely react negatively.

 

[Liminal1]

No, last time I tried to open up about my feelings to someone I ended up in a psyche ward. Unfortunately this is the only place I can speak freely

 

[PrisonPlanetBreak]

Nobody knows. The way I see it, once you end up on this forum, it's likely you are not interested in conventional help. I am aware there are people on this forum who have recovered. But the general consensus is that, this forum exists to talk about suicide without the ever present stigma around it. It does not necessarily mean you want to end it now. Yet, talking about suicide to your friends/therapist/etc., like we can do here, is not exactly easy. Be careful whom you disclose to the fact that you have an account on here.

 

[tiredone]

Nobody.
Keep it that way for your safety and ours.

 

[FuneralCry]

I would never tell anyone I know about anything suicide related, it's nobody else's business anyway. And in general I just think it's a bad idea opening up about suicide in this anti-choice society where there is a lack of acceptance towards the right to die.

 

[UtopianSoliloquies]

It's very considerate of you to want to tell them about it but I think we've seen through mainstream media how loved ones of SaSu members tend to react after someone close to them CTBs.

 

[jinx <3]

I've told some close friends about the existence of a forum like this one, but have never explicitly named it to them. Either way, these friends all had some personal experiences with suicidality, so they didn't do any of the typical freak out stuff that I assume others may do upon hearing about this site for the first time. They were focused more on what my experience was than where I spent my free time. So yes I've mentioned it, but only in passing and to very close friends who would understand. I'm pretty open about my suicidality with others, in part because I have not had bad experiences when doing so, but I'm aware that I'm the minority there. I hope others on here have or will have similar positive experiences when sharing their issues with others, but I get that that may not happen for most.

 

[F&Inside]

Hello water bunny.
Not only they don't know about this place, they don't even know how I really feel. I behave normally. From my point of view it's better for me that way.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I didn't tell anyone about my SS account. What for? They wouldn't understand it anyway.

 

[AllCatsAreGrey]

I haven't told anyone about the site directly. It honestly feels good. The subject of suicide is deeply personal and it seems best for me to cultivate my take outside of the influence of those close to me. I've never felt so uninhibited to express myself as I do here. Y'all have a special place in my heart.

I have referred to the forum in indirect ways. Once to a close friend I shared I was researching suicide for a paper. I shared I joined a "controversial site" with no other details.

Once I discussed how helpful the recovery section has been with my therapist, but described it as a stand alone discord group.

 

[Amidaa]

nope haven't told anyone about this site and i will never do. like i have tried to talk about my though and why i want to ctb but as usual they see it as negatively and start calling me selfish and stupid all the names and saying it is the easy route that i take. and keep telling me that i have to do more stuff to keep myself busy, but i'm doing that already like its hard to get yourself out of bed and go to work and keep working my body aint a machine that can keep going until i just drop dead. they just won't understand if you are in a certain state you just can't force yourself to do things they keep telling you to do. they will never understand u even if they tell you they do like it just delusional mind. it is just a waste of time trying at this point it is just better to stay quiet and say nothing then getting the negative reaction i'm already exhausted.
the flame that i keep going is slowy dying. so it is for the best to just stay silence and let them find it out if it is done.

 

[nozomu]

People know I use the website, but not my account. My partner knows I am a mod of a suicide forum, but doesn't know the name of the site and they're not very technology inclined.

 

[moondazed]

I feel somewhat guilty keeping this account a secret from the people who care alot about me. I'm curious to know if any of you have told a close friend / partner about your account and their reactions (i'm not planning to reveal anytime soon though, maybe i'll add it in my note if i ctb)

I told my best friend the other day I was frequenting a suicide forum when I was having a panic attack. I didn't elaborate anymore. I really don't want my IRL people to know lol

 

[SmollMushroom]

I have nobody to tell in the first place... Aside my therapist, but I don't think that's a good idea.

 

[ApathyToLife]

If they knew, I'd be locked up in a psych ward.

 

[BlazingBob]

Nobody would care. I really don't have any loved ones. I'm envious of people who have families that care about them but that certainly makes ctb more difficult.

 

[kaipuff]

my partner knows but thats it and im never telling anyone else

 

[stilhavinightmares]

Not a single one and it will stay that way.

 

[voyager]

My mum is aware of a suicide forum per se, but that's about it. She knows because of the discussions we had in the past. Ofc, she thinks this place ain't good for me and these thoughts can't possibly be my own, but both views completely ignore the many years that led up to this. So, while she may not get my reasoning per se, she does respect my wishes because she's a good person and not a lunatic like that Kelli woman.

 

[Old Friend]

No way. Would end up sectioned.

 

[todeswunsch]

I told my ex (we're still close) I've created an account, but not my acc name.
She was here before and no longer access the forum but I don't know her username, it is better that way.
She is the only one I can trust RL regarding suicide as she had struggled and kinda understands.
Apart from her, I don't think I can tell anyone else

 

[SketchedOut]

my gf is the only one who knows and i told a couple friends that i trust about a suicide forum existing somewhere out there and that's it

 

[mob]

Absolutely not. Don't think I'll ever tell anyone, don't want to end up in the psych ward.

 

[digitaldreamer]

Definitely not, it would only make people try to "help" which is another word for strip you of your rights to do what you want with your life, because dying is "bad"

 

[hi-okbye]

i have a really close friend. she's known i've ben suicidal basically the second i became it. we always tell each other everything and its really nice. i've told her about this forum on a few occasions. mostly when we're on facetime and i'll be scrolling through different posts. if i find something funny i'll tell her. she's find listening to me vent about suicide and stuff. the only thing she refuses is to give any advice/opionion on anything having to do with my suicide. which is completly understandable to me, i think i'm really lucky just to have someone who will listen.

 

[DeadWallflower]

No. Not sure what they'd say or do if they knew. I don't think they believe I'll go through with it. Boy won't they be surprised… wish I was around to say I told you so.

 

[RichardFirst]

It's best to not disclose the existence of this site to normies. It's a good resource for people who need it, and it's best if it doesn't get the attention of the types of people who derive a dopamine hit from forcing continued existence onto those who do not wish to be here.

 

[Al Gul]

Most of my family and friends know, but I've been selectively excluding a few mostly to not worry them.

 

[stuckinfiction]

I told my partner about my account. He doesn't like that I have it and tells me to get off SaSu. I still come back here