I mean, my life isn't that interesting and fun. So when I tell someone about myself I get some sings of pity and that's something I don't need. I guess some might do this just to be polite or to show kindness but that only makes it worse. I also feel like I'm ruin the person's mood this way and that i need to come up with some generic lies but that is not possible in the long run. Thus, I don't even know the purpose of meeting people anymore, because I'm not worth their time.
Ultracheese
Arcanist
- Dec 1, 2022
- 490
I can relate to the feelings you mentioned. I am very self-conscious about being a burden to people around me so I try to hide my misery, which I often fail at. I often have to face the dilemma of pushing people away by lying about my feelings, or being honest about them and people leaving due to discomfort, and I almost always choose the former.
the only vibes I give are annoying, toxic and repulsive so people usually avoid me as much as possible. luckily I got used to living a schizoid lifestyle.
Yeah, same. I've recently put off seeing family members because I just feel too negative and I can't be bothered to pretend I'm anything else. Being around others would take so much effort now- to put on an act and I would likely come away feeling even more- how abnormal I am.
venomousSSërpent74
Member
- Oct 19, 2023
- 94
I usually do I wish I could pretend to be happy longer for the sake of people around me,my friends even strangers but I can no longer do that.I have managed to hide how much I express myself but even that's hard. i've also practiced hiding it because I have to remember people still have their own lives to live and no one has time for it. no matter how many times people say things like "i'm here for you" and you can talk to me when in reality im more here for myself most of the time because at the end of the day thats all you have is yourself.
Pluto
Meowing to go out
- Dec 27, 2020
- 4,107
I don't like being pitied, nor belittled for failing to fit in. Yet these tend to be the only two responses I get when I try to connect with people. Nothing good ever comes of it for anyone.
The solution has been to isolate myself, which makes the situation progressively get worse since humans are 'social animals'. In the end, I've drawn the profound conclusion that children should not be tormented until they withdraw and lose the ability to socialise for life.
The solution has been to isolate myself, which makes the situation progressively get worse since humans are 'social animals'. In the end, I've drawn the profound conclusion that children should not be tormented until they withdraw and lose the ability to socialise for life.
Al Gul
Just one more drink...
- Feb 21, 2023
- 53
I do hate being the "bummer" in the group, but I shield it with dark humour and self deprecation. It still really get some people down, but I try to stick to people with the same sense of humour and such.
Sprite_Geist
NULL
- May 27, 2020
- 1,593
No I think the opposite. I used to give off so-called "positive vibes" only to have them thrown back in my face; any time I tried to put in the effort to be friendly there would always be at least one individual who would not reciprocate, or even turn hostile. This is when I grew tired of trying to put on a happy and outgoing exterior, because others were not doing the same, and it was very draining giving energy to others who did not even want it. This is an instance of somebody (me) trying so hard to be positive to the point that it led to burn out. So currently I do not bother with other people if I can help it. I have reverted back to my quiet and introverted self; this is always who I was (and still am) underneath anyway. I am not miserable I just stopped being outwardly positive to those who do not (or did not) appreciate it. Perhaps I come across as really unhappy in the real world now? Then so be it. Not many seemed to notice the difference when I tried to act the opposite anyway.
Celerity
shape without form, shade without colour
- Jan 24, 2021
- 2,733
You get better at faking with age, or at least I did. Most people who know me would be completely blindsided if I caught the bus. The easiest way to avoid talking about myself is to spend a lot of time talking about them.
Yes, and I can be genuinely interested in the person, but again, it's tiring in the long run. You know a lot about them, they know almost nothing substernal about you and it begins to feel like you're a dump for others' stories and problems if it's always like this...
Celerity
shape without form, shade without colour
- Jan 24, 2021
- 2,733
That's a good point. Being used by emotionally-needy people is almost always a drag and always unhealthy.
Callie Arcale
It’s a tale told by an idiot signifying nothing
- Feb 10, 2021
- 846
I don't tell anyone about my problems. I am quite serene and cheereful if you meet me in person. When I was healthy I used to try to be a good person, always ready to lend an ear and a hand to those around me.
Now I live in isolation and the few times I
come in contact with friends or family I put on a mask. My mental abilities are limited due to brain inflammation, and I am bedbound due to orthostatic intolerance, so I am not able to offer anything meaningful to anyone. I see no need to make things unpleasant for people by polluting their lives with my darkness.
Now I live in isolation and the few times I
come in contact with friends or family I put on a mask. My mental abilities are limited due to brain inflammation, and I am bedbound due to orthostatic intolerance, so I am not able to offer anything meaningful to anyone. I see no need to make things unpleasant for people by polluting their lives with my darkness.
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It's so sad. Are you still able to ctb just in case if it gets unbearable? (I hope I don't sound rude)
Callie Arcale
It’s a tale told by an idiot signifying nothing
- Feb 10, 2021
- 846
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