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copioushopelessness

Experienced
Aug 27, 2025
277
Who is without a doubt certain? Not just having a hard time.
What are your reasons?
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,239
Yes i'm certain i need to and want to suicide to die asap
 
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violetforever

violetforever

Arcanist
Dec 24, 2025
432
as certain as ill ever be. im tired of laying in bed listening to music and crying all day.
 
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copioushopelessness

Experienced
Aug 27, 2025
277
as certain as ill ever be. im tired of laying in bed listening to music and crying all day.
I'm so sorry. We deserve better. Music doesn't hit like it used to. Everything makes me cry.
 
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RiftbornVeil

RiftbornVeil

always a dreamer <3
Feb 8, 2026
82
Who is without a doubt certain? Not just having a hard time.
What are your reasons?
I would consider my choice certain.

The agonizing pain and weight on my mind everyday is too much to bear; nothing I do feels real, I don't feel like myself and don't know who I "am," and my actions, gestures, and speech feels utterly fake. I am placed under too many expectations and am being slowly torn apart as I try to attend to each. And I don't feel much, I have lost passions for what I used to love.

It was very cathartic, to answer your question
 
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copioushopelessness

Experienced
Aug 27, 2025
277
I'm dying in the next week the second my package gets here. I'm pretty serious about it.
I'm sorry it's come to this. I hope it's as peaceful as possible. I'm pretty nervous. I wish I had found it sooner. Every moment waiting is hell.
 
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copioushopelessness

Experienced
Aug 27, 2025
277
I would consider my choice certain.

The agonizing pain and weight on my mind everyday is too much to bear; nothing I do feels real, I don't feel like myself and don't know who I "am," and my actions, gestures, and speech feels utterly fake. I am placed under too many expectations and am being slowly torn apart as I try to attend to each. And I don't feel much, I have lost passions for what I used to love.

It was very cathartic, to answer your question
I know how you feel. I'm sorry. I miss the passion I used to have. The old me. It's never been easy but I didn't expect it to get this hard. I hope we find relief one way or another.
I would consider my choice certain.

The agonizing pain and weight on my mind everyday is too much to bear; nothing I do feels real, I don't feel like myself and don't know who I "am," and my actions, gestures, and speech feels utterly fake. I am placed under too many expectations and am being slowly torn apart as I try to attend to each. And I don't feel much, I have lost passions for what I used to love.

It was very cathartic, to answer your question
Nah it's actually pretty cool. I don't really give a fuck about anything.
I only care about the two people it will affect. Otherwise I'm so ready.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Mage
Nov 12, 2025
581
Yes, the reason is a permanent, life altering problem that I can never accept.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,189
Yes, I'm sure that I want the peace of non-existence where this dreadful, torturous existence is all gone and forgotten, existence is just so evil and just causes harm and suffering torturing existing beings, the suffering and torture of existing is endless and I'll only be glad to cease existing, what is so terrible to me is how humans impose this existence causing all this pain and suffering there was never a need for in the first place.

I'll only be glad to permanently cease existing, I just want to erase this torturous, futile existence, to me existence truly is the most terrible mistake that should never had been imposed, for me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from the cruelty, suffering and torture of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to exist truly is the most terrible undeserved punishment. To suffer in this torturous, harmful existence is always an abomination, it's so horrific to me how the torture of existing cam continue for decades longer just for one to face the extreme agony of old age and for me every second is torture to be conscious, I always suffer so unbearably from existing in this evil world.
 

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