Are you scared?

[xo777]

I know we have the same goal in the end which it to CTB but are you scared for what will come next? Does it bother you?

 

[Zegers]

Not scared, but the uncertainty is unsettling. Im like more interested in the idea of afterlife than all this.

 

[anaconda]

Yes the afterlife scares me, but I guess life scares me nearly as much

 

[locked*n*loaded]

No. What I'm scared of is growing old alone, getting more serious health issues, and ending up somewhere, like a nursing home, without anyone to be an advocate for me. I've had, basically, the same life for the past 25 years or so, with the exception that I did have some family around for most of it. Now, ALL of them have died and I'm more alone than I ever have been. And not having anyone in this world left who truly cares for me and loves me is not something that I plan on experiencing much longer. Most of all, though, I just need to exit before having to live through the added pain of poorer health comes to find me.

 

[Idontmatter]

My biggest fear is that I wake up in the hospital. As far as death I'm nervous but I'm at peace with my upcoming death. I'm not sure if there is an afterlife but I just can't handle this one anymore.

 

[TheDoomedDoomer]

I know we have the same goal in the end which it to CTB but are you scared for what will come next? Does it bother you?

I'm scared of there being the possibility of an afterlife. I don't want to exist beyond death. Unfortunately with my dreams & spiritual experiences in this life it leads me to believe there's something after but it's definitely not what we'd expect like for example heaven or hell.

 

[abyss]

I don't fear death itself or the afterlife (maybe reincarnation). Moreso fear of waking up with permanent damage or being a vegetable and burdening my family. I fear how my family might react, it's the biggest one for me.

 

[Zegers]

heaven or hell.

This is hell, i can't imagine a worse place than this. yeah, some folks have a good life but it is nightmarish for others.

 

[kittykrying]

I'm more scared about reincarnation and the spiritual matters that involves it than going to the hell and suffer for eternity. I REALLY don't want to go back to this planet. I don't want to exist, don't want to feel, don't want think. Just the void.

 

[Zzzzz]

I'm much more concerned about what happens while I'm alive than when I'm dead. I don't know if there is an afterlife of some kind but if there is I believe it will be a better world than this one for me.

 

[nys]

I don't rlly fear death because I think you just stop existing and there's nothing. Im more scared of being alive and to live my life for another 70 years bc when I think abt it, it seems impossible and rlly difficult. Sometimes I think abt an afterlife/reincarnation and im scared abt that but overall I believe there's just nothing after death so Im not scared of it

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

No matter what I do or believe in,the fear about death and what comes after death will always be there for me. But it is not greater than the horrifying reality called life. And I am already out of all the passion,hope,skills,mind and body required to live this life. So whatever there is, it doesn't matter anymore I guess.

 

[Judy Garland]

I'm scared of not succeeding. I have had anxiety about where my spirit is going to go, but I feel better about that for the time being.

 

[picklemick]

I know we have the same goal in the end which it to CTB but are you scared for what will come next? Does it bother you?

Scared of failing.

 

[TheBroken]

Not really. I have beliefs about what it will be, but beliefs don't create reality/truth they're just beliefs. Hoping my beliefs are accurate. I am ready.

 

[DreamSurfer]

I fear failing ctb and having to live in am even worse situation after that, I fear the moments leading up to CTB with all the survivor instinct, and how the CTB transpires.

I experienced amazing hallucinogenic experiences and also having been put under for surgery, which was very very very peaceful. Those things give me hope that the CTB end result is much better than the baseline suffering of living.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

I only have the unpleasant feeling that I could miss something in this life, though I know that there is nobody and nothing that could miss or regret anything when I am not existing anymore.

 

[AreWeWinning]

I'm not scared of what comes after. First, I don't think anything comes. Second, it's impossible to know, so there's no point in thinking about it…

What I'm scared of is missing out! What if miraculously my condition improves, or my life changes… It's difficult to give up hope! My mind constantly races around in circles. "What if this, what if that…"

I'm starting to realise that a crucial element of me being able to do it is the ability to give up hope. I feel like once I can be certain life has nothing more to offer, then it becomes a lot easier. From there on, it's just a question of technicalities.

 

[Julgran]

I know we have the same goal in the end which it to CTB but are you scared for what will come next? Does it bother you?

The thought of what comes next after this life is both exciting - since the end could mean that nothing will exist from our perspective, or that a new reality will emerge, which is much better - but also concerning, since the end could mean reincarnation or something equally as unwelcome.

 

[sunnyflower]

I know we have the same goal in the end which it to CTB but are you scared for what will come next? Does it bother you?

It doesn't bother me what is next, I just exist. I would do anything to be at peace and rest with my son

 

[Ash’Girl]

I'm not scared at what comes after. I have certain spiritual beliefs, and I hope that it is somewhat like that (not traditional concepts of "heaven" and "hell").

If I am wrong, and there is nothing, I'll be none the wiser. Which is also better than this existence.

I think this is hell. The human experience may be sometimes filled with great joy (for some), but there is also a ridiculous amount of pain, and for some of us the balance is tipped hugely, for whatever reasons. If you try to tip the balance back for decades and never seem to consistently get anywhere, how much longer are you supposed to keep suffering? I am scared of yet more decades of suffering. I just want it over.

(You, obvs, is me )

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, I do not fear death at all. I actually look forward to it. I believe that there is nothing after this, once we are gone, we cease to exist and that is it for us. Death is freedom from all suffering and it is just like how before we were born where time passed and yet we were not aware of anything. Non existence is all that I want, it is where I belong as I know that nothing can hurt me then. Instead I fear life itself and the method failing. The fear of failure is what holds me back from ctb. Existence is so horrifying.

 

[Idontmatter]

In my case, I do not fear death at all. I actually look forward to it. I believe that there is nothing after this, once we are gone, we cease to exist and that is it for us. Death is freedom from all suffering and it is just like how before we were born where time passed and yet we were not aware of anything. Non existence is all that I want, it is where I belong as I know that nothing can hurt me then. Instead I fear life itself and the method failing. The fear of failure is what holds me back from ctb. Existence is so horrifying.

I have the fear of failure as well . My worst nightmare would be to fail and wake up in the hospital and then my family would be mad at me. I'm still going to ctb but I'm very nervous about failing.

 

[outrider567]

I know we have the same goal in the end which it to CTB but are you scared for what will come next? Does it bother you?

I don't see anything coming next after CTB---

I have the fear of failure as well . My worst nightmare would be to fail and wake up in the hospital and then my family would be mad at me. I'm still going to ctb but I'm very nervous about failing.

Not much family left for me, but, like you, I hardly want to wake up in a hospital either--My fear of failure is minimal, Nitrogen is quite lethal, and as per the Mega Thread, quite reliable

 

[Symbiote]

No. Whatever I face in the next chapter has gotta be less stressful than this life. If it ends up being more than that, then oh well, what can you do? You're screwed getting into Heaven anyways since you've had a shitty life to start with and you don't believe in the big guy either.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes, a possible horrible afterlife and/or reincarnation does frighten me and especially if I ever pluck up the courage to ctb. Having been raised with the idea that suicide is punished. I have tried to quash the idea but it's difficult to stamp out completely...

Of course, even a run of the mill regular death may go the same way I suppose... Guess it depends on just how strict the heaven entry terms are...

 

[Fthis]

I know we have the same goal in the end which it to CTB but are you scared for what will come next? Does it bother you?

I'm not scared at all by the afterlife I am scared of what the people close to me will think and do

 

[TheDoomedDoomer]

This is hell, i can't imagine a worse place than this. yeah, some folks have a good life but it is nightmarish for others.

Exactly. I don't think it'll be bad like this. From my personal spiritual experiences and dreams I believe we'll be okay. We're all energy.

 

[Hope:-)]

Yes.

 

[8evergo]

I'm not afraid of death, I gave it up a long time ago, only that I miss something, when the time comes, I like to go

Yes.

ahh

don't be angry with me then why are you looking for a ctb partner ore N