It's really hard for me to say.
Sometimes I can be the calmest person in the room, but sometimes I'm very chaotic.
I'm naturally a person who likes and has to plan things in advance. It could even be some kind of illness, because I even have to plan very mundane things in my head, but that's a different topic.
If a situation happens that my plan didn't foresee, then huge chaos begins in my head.
This can result in my great anger, among other things.
Until everything goes according to my "plan", I can be very calm, but if failures start, I start to lose control over myself.
The fact that my illness/mental illnesses are increasingly taking control of my mind doesn't help either.
I probably have depression, so of course I want to do less and less things.
Among other things, this has an impact on the fact that my planning skills are getting worse and more limited.
As I mentioned above, my brain forces me to plan, but my illnesses keep getting in the way.
This causes me additional frustration.