Discussion Are you lonely?

[whitelacedress]

From experience and also reading stories on this and other sites, most of us want to go mainly because we are feeling alone in our situation or in general. Is someone here feel like they are part of a supporting group and still want to go?

 

[OnlyBuilt4Linxs]

EXTREMELY lonely

Main reason I want to go

 

[Acerakis]

Yes, I don't seem to be able to form meaningful connections with anyone.

 

[Mooshi]

Although it's not my main reason for ctb, I am so very lonely. This place is the only place where I'm listened to and understood. It's the only place where I feel like I belong. Everyone in my real life is unsupportive and/or insensitive, and they don't listen to me much.

 

[Ghassane]

Been lonely my whole life never had a friend or anybody to love me even my old therapist gave up on me finding anybody and of course my looks never helped I've tried hiring escorts not for sex but just so i can take her somewhere and spend some awkward time with somebody but they all don't give a fuck they even suck at acting all what they want is money and their so expansive they charge for every our i end up desapointed and heart broken each time but i go back again because i just can't take it it's like an addiction not being alone for sometime that's definitely one of the reasons im offing it.

 

[Sad_Autistic_boy_101]

I'm lonely. It totally sucks. Everyone says go and make friends but it's not easy, especially being autistic. It's hard because I don't get any emails or texts or messages on Facebook and so it seems pointless even having a phone as people don't care. I mean I talk to people on here but then they die (which is obvious) but it's still hella lonely.

 

[K-O]

I'm lonely. It totally sucks. Everyone says go and make friends but it's not easy, especially being autistic. It's hard because I don't get any emails or texts or messages on Facebook and so it seems pointless even having a phone as people don't care. I mean I talk to people on here but then they die (which is obvious) but it's still hella lonely.

i love you my friend

 

[whitelacedress]

Been lonely my whole life never had a friend or anybody to love me even my old therapist gave up on me finding anybody and of course my looks never helped I've tried hiring escorts not for sex but just so i can take her somewhere and spend some awkward time with somebody but they all don't give a fuck they even suck at acting all what they want is money and their so expansive they charge for every our i end up desapointed and heart broken each time but i go back again because i just can't take it it's like an addiction not being alone for sometime that's definitely one of the reasons im offing it.

fuck that therapist

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Yes I am lonely, I am locked up in my head and in chained by insecurities.
It's very hard for me to relate and to connect to other people.

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

Yes, very alone and very lonely. Not much more to say

 

[Darksektori]

You get used to the feeling of being alone personally I'm more of an Introvert, it dosen't bother me as much. I also tend to keep any of my issues to myself.

 

[heartslikeours]

I feel very lonely. My only company are my thoughts which are trying to drown me every day.

 

[JustAnotherSuicider]

Yes, very. I can't bare being alone, but at this point I can't bare being with people too. Well, I don't have anyone to be with anyway so this doesn't matter I guess. All I need is just someone which I could pour my love on, and be loved by this person - but that's not gonna happen, so my only option is to CTB.

 

[GoBack]

Yeah, was always lonely but now I'm scared in it. Never was scared of it before

 

[Élégie]

Yes, very lonely. It didn't use to bother me (being an introvert and all) but after a decade of being completely isolated, it's starting to take a toll on me...

 

[Woodnote]

Yes, I'm very lonely.

 

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QUOTE="whitelacedress, post: 746420, member: 18627"]
From experience and also reading stories on this and other sites, most of us want to go mainly because we are feeling alone in our situation or in general. Is someone here feel like they are part of a supporting group and still want to go?
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...Really lonely. Having an unknown, unpredictable physical condition has damaged my bonds with everyone. They get pissed at me for calling the shots in the relationship but the reality is I'm not even in control either. My body has its own ideas, and schedule, refusing to work or even be conscious when there are people around, then screaming in agony and begging for distraction when everyone is away or busy.

Sod's law! You're not any less of a person and shouldn't feel guilt because life is dissatisfying and it feels too hard to keep going. Even though we're coming at this site from totally different viewpoints I can see yours clearly and do not blame you for how you feel

 

[readytogo982]

Yes and no... I have a good amount of friends but I don't have anyone who truly knows me or cares about me. I can distance for weeks without anyone reaching it out. I feel like they just tolerate my presence when we hang out. Same thing with my family.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Extremely, I used to have to many close friends and now I have no one.

 

[TheRaul95]

No, got you guys... :)

 

[Muirthemne]

I'm crushingly lonely. I'm estranged from my family, I barely have friends, I don't fit in anywhere. I've never been on a single date, and at this point I know I never will. All anyone's ever told me is that I'm not good enough, that I'm too messed up to be loved, and eventually I had to admit they were right.

 

[Good4Nothing]

Yup. Pretty darn lonely. I thought I would be okay alone, but I'm not. It's really hitting me hard lately.

 

[Hearth_56]

I've always been alone and never had an issue with it, but lately I've felt so isolated and detached from everything due to not really caring about anything anymore and not wanting to be a part of anything.

 

[Saddaisy]

Yep. I'm alone and have no one and no one understands my pain. My coworker was crying bc her boyfriend of 4 months cheated on her: I mean bawling and got sent home early. I wanted to smack a girl. She doesn't know pain until you have your life partner of 18 years cheat on you.
I'm not interested in anything bc of what my lovely bf did... he'll pay soon enough. Plus everyone else who had a part in this.

 

[FriendofDeath]

After losing my son, people reached out but I couldn't handle it. Self isolated and people disappeared, including those I considered real friends. I am an introvert, and this quarantine hasn't been difficult for me, however, if not for my cats, that might be different. I am not the same person as I was before losing my son.

 

[mathieu]

I am very lonely. I live alone and don't work so I spend a lot of time by myself but even when I am with other people I feel lonely.

 

[Notverix]

i am extremely lonely no matter what, i dont have trouble changeing my outward appearance so i can make friends but i never have meaningful connections.

 

[WhatIsMyLife]

Yep. I've never been able to make that full connection with friends. Like I can probably hang out with them in a social space, but never enough to just hang out at there house or something.

 

[Marktheghost]

Yep. Desperately lonely! No support at all.

 

[SpottedPanda]

I've spent so much time alone in my life, I wouldn't recognise loneliness. I have no friends to speak of, but I'm not sure I'd appreciate them if I did. I'd still feel alone, and have problems expressing myself. One problem is that I'm so subtly jaded that I don't admire anyone anymore, so even in good company, I wouldn't appreciate it.

This all feeds into the feeling that I'm overdue on my desire to leave. Nothing like friendship has much meaning to me anymore.