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vitbar

vitbar

Escaped Lunatic
Jun 4, 2023
574
In my day to day I've been feeling okay to happy most days since finding the right the anti-depressants. Still get depressive episodes at times, still feel sad about a bunch of things in my life, but it doesn't continually weigh on me atm.
 
MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
1,831
For a minute today I was. Then I went to the store to get a few things. Pulled out a shopping cart, and nudged in the child seat part of the cart was one of those foam mold pieces that nail salon techs put on clients feet to keep their toes spread apart while the nail polish is drying. Instant reminder of what shitty disguting maggot humans are and how society has become unlivable.
 
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lostintheloop

Enlightened
Apr 14, 2023
1,319
No, Not sure what happy even is, has been too long
 
tary

tary

Experienced
Jul 3, 2022
246
I feel happy, but only because I've decided to die in January at the latest (will be out of money then). This lets me not worry about the future or the past or much in general, and truly live in the moment, enjoying things that are enjoyable to me right now.
 
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SonicFan1994

SonicFan1994

Member
Jun 17, 2024
77
.... why tf would we be on this site if we were.
 
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Abyssal

Abyssal

Probably gonna die soon maybe?
Nov 26, 2023
1,326
In English class of my Sophomore year of high school, we were reading Fahrenheit 451, and in it there's a line where the main character's boss asks him "Are you happy?" And I remember thinking 'damn I'm really not.' That stance hasn't changed.

I am having a good day though!
 
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emptyenvelopes

emptyenvelopes

Student
Jun 15, 2024
103
I feel alive, but not happy. I lack purpose, I feel alone and isolated. My basic needs are provided for, but without the fulfillment and community I crave I can't truly be happy.
I feel happy, but only because I've decided to die in January at the latest (will be out of money then). This lets me not worry about the future or the past or much in general, and truly live in the moment, enjoying things that are enjoyable to me right now.
I can relate, the only time I feel happy is when I'm on a trip as planned. When I'm on a trip/vacation, my only goal is to live in the moment and experience new things. All of the pressures of daily life are gone. But when I go back to daily life, the pressures of, your career and relationship and community really prevent you from being happy.
I don't think anyone's happy. I think some are satisfied but I'm definitely not
How do you feel satisfied? I feel like I could cope if I felt satisfied, but I just feel such a strong, lacking and emptiness that I don't feel happy, nor satisfied.
 
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abchia

Student
Aug 28, 2023
181
Never and I don't even believe in the idea of happiness in the first place rather the idea of such is a delusion to me that just invalidates how undesirable and hopeless existence truly is.
Curious, what do you say if someone were to ask you how you're doing? Would you lie/say that you're doing good or feeling alright?
 
randomeyes11

randomeyes11

Ready to go home
Jun 14, 2024
18
I'm not even sure what happiness is anymore. Haven't felt it in a long time.
 
trappedinthislife

trappedinthislife

Student
May 13, 2024
105
I don't know, depends on how you define happiness I guess. Im quite content with my current life but it is not something I feel fully happy about.
 
Sheller

Sheller

Member
Mar 7, 2024
10
Resist on your numb, you will not care about others' minds day by day.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
4,223
No. I don't think I've ever been truly happy.
 
Sk1rtd4b

Sk1rtd4b

Member
May 13, 2024
35
I feel happy, but only because I've decided to die in January at the latest (will be out of money then). This lets me not worry about the future or the past or much in general, and truly live in the moment, enjoying things that are enjoyable to me right now.
This feeling is the only peace I've found in life recently.
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,408
Sometimes I'm happy, but more of in a fleeting sense. Short term happiness is very easy to attain for me but doing so ends up putting long term happiness even further from my reach it seems.
 
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etherealspring

etherealspring

can someone just kill me already
Mar 27, 2024
281
not to be rude, but y would i be here if i was happy đź’€
 
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dolemitedrums

Arcanist
Jun 12, 2024
447
Nope, not happy. Hence the suicide forum. :)
 
lonely&trapped.

lonely&trapped.

I rather would be just a face in a crowd
Mar 22, 2024
30
I will never be truly happy.
 
astrichaoz

astrichaoz

And if I were someone else, would this be easier?
Apr 15, 2024
44
Not really. I'll have short euphoria peaks that last maybe an hour or two, or I'll have days that are generally okay, but for the most part I just feel sad or empty.
 

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