Discussion Are you grateful for anything?

[Fadeawaaaay]

1. I am grateful to have a little bit of financial padding Allowing me to eat and pay my rent and dither for quite a while before actually CTBing… (I don't even think I have the energy to be homeless… I feel like The Walking Dead) Most I can do is lay in bed all day…
2. And for potential access to N
3. And for this forum where I can get them useful information and connect to like-minded souls…
4. And For a couple friends who are willing to put up with my constant complaining which alleviates the soul crushing loneliness and sadness…

 

[Wingspan]

All gratefulness comes from the misfortune of others or the potential for grand suffering to occur. Anything to be grateful for only feels good because it has the possibility to be so much worse. The only reason I'm 'grateful' to live in a house is because I could be living in an asylum, the only reason I'm 'grateful' to live in the UK is because I feel relief at having not been born in North Korea, the only reason a starving child feels so grateful to have food on their plate is because of the immense suffering experienced preceding having the food. I'm ungrateful for having the capacity to experience gratefulness imposed on me.

 

[motel rooms]

I'm grateful for my partner. No drug can cure me completely, not even his love, but I'm very grateful he came along.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I am grateful for not being homeless
I am grateful for not having to work at the moment or feed myself and having other essentials met
I am grateful for being to walk talk and see
I am grateful for being able to sleep
I am grateful for fast speed internet that allows for getting in touch with others like me
I am grateful for SS and accessing N

 

[FuneralCry]

No, why I would I be grateful for such a horrible life. I am not grateful that I was forced to exist and I have to endure suffering every day. I never asked to be here. I was perfectly fine not existing until I was forced to live. There is nothing positive about being alive, for me everything is painful.

 

[Lost Magic]

I am grateful for the basics like food and shelter, but it is not enough for me not wanting to ctb. I have already died inside a long time ago. It is just a matter of time now.

 

[ascetic_]

I am grateful for not being homeless
I am grateful for not having to work at the moment or feed myself and having other essentials met
I am grateful for being to walk talk and see
I am grateful for being able to sleep
I am grateful for fast speed internet that allows for getting in touch with others like me
I am grateful for SS and accessing N

Basically my list as well.

 

[noname223]

I am grateful for my friends, the country i live in and that I currently do not live in poverty (however this will change in some years)

 

[demuic]

I am grateful that life does not last forever.

 

[whywere]

I am grateful for all loving and caring souls here on SS. I have a little saved up to help keep the lights on till I hopefully find a job.

After my car crash when I was in ICU, a team of doctors came in to look at me and I complained about the massive pain and one doctor looked at me and said: "you are still sucking in air, correct?".

Yep, it is the small things in this world.

Walter

 

[Rational man]

"you are still sucking in air, correct?"

Do doctors do.soft skills.?. That's awful. A.neurologist said to me.that I would have to live with my disease and there's not that much that can be done. He said 37 isn't exactly young, implying that my disease.is related to age !

 

[whywere]

Do doctors do.soft skills.?. That's awful. A.neurologist said to me.that I would have to live with my disease and there's not that much that can be done. He said 37 isn't exactly young, implying that my disease.is related to age !

Totally agree with you, if I would have not been so looped up on drugs, I might have snapped at him.

This came to mind, how about this one?!? After I got out of the hospital after the car crash, I was scheduled to go to a neurologist and when I got there and the person came into the room, they looked at my chart and said: "oh, you have depression, well we will take your depression and put it in this box and put it to the side!!" There was no box, they just made an imaginary box in front of me and waved it to the side and they had a roll of the eyes at me.

Needless to say, I NEVER EVER went back.

Just because a person puts on a white coat does not make them a "God" or anything of such.

Yep, my record with doctors, what can I say?!?

Walter

 

[make_00]

my parents

 

[stellabelle]

Grateful to be around someone sanely insane, that understands my situation rather than justifying the shitty things people did/have done, and the frustration behind it.

Grateful, yes. But it will not change how I feel about suicide and that a peaceful exit would in fact be the best thing for me at this point.

 

[4eyebiped]

Beyond some of the obvious answers, I must say I do appreciate having access to a nice hot shower. I also appreciate the fact that I can trust my drinking water. My friend from Indonesia talked about always having to boil their tap water before drinking. Depending on where you live, you may be surprised at some of the luxuries you take for granted.