Are you going to ctb in the next few weeks/months?

[TheGoodGuy]

I am curious it seems most of the members are "just" depressed and not really suicidal so are you going to ctb the in the next few weeks or months?

 

[yami9292]

Well I'm hoping by this April if not May, but at the same time I could go sooner

 

[Redt2go]

Are you bored that noones ctb in a few days or?

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Nope. Is this required?

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I just feel like most people on here are just depressed or LARPING to get attention while I am actually going to do it.

 

[Redt2go]

I just feel like most people on here are just depressed or LARPING to get attention while I am actually going to do it.

Block the people that bother you. I'll be sad to see you go though... I feel like you need some loving and empathy... Open another thread?

 

[GeorgeEastman]

Probably not. I am discovering I have a whole new group of people I want to get revenge on. The only way to do that is live.

 

[nooo2]

This year I'm planning on it. I was thinking about getting help, but I've tried so hard to reach out to my parents but I still can't get a therapist or a doctor to prescribe me with meds. So I've just given up.

 

[Chinaski]

I just feel like most people on here are just depressed or LARPING to get attention while I am actually going to do it.

Yeah. Some of these people have been on the site since August 27th ffs, they should hurry up and get on with it imo.

 

[alizee]

The moment of suicide is your natural death and it comes when its time. Don't believe me? Go read about hard determinism. Every event in your life is outside your control and you may think of having free will but that's an illusion.

So the death of suicide is your natural death when you kill yourself. Similar to a person who dies in a car accident, or from cancer and or what most people perceive as natural death (dying from old age). Every event factors from the preceding event and birth is the only deciding variable. Your start "born into a family" until the end "the day you die" and all events in between are all outside human control. We're conditioned by society to think otherwise, such as we have control or capable to make our own decisions and from the religious ideology that assumes God gave us free will. All a constructed fallacy that keep inequality flourishing in the world and grave injustices for people fated by destiny to end up in jail or worse.

I'm finishing a few events that I find important. I wanted to end everything on new years but these things have been taking forever but should be done sometime this year and then I'll end my life as fate has it written. Unless it's otherwise written for me to fail and end up crippled and where I cannot succeed with trying again.

 

[Redt2go]

Yeah. Some of these people have been on the site since August 27th ffs, they should hurry up and get on with it imo.

LMAO always so witty with it

 

[samuraiwarrior]

I would do it now, but I am waiting for GoT finale which will end in lst week of june. So I will do it in first or 2nd week of July. It also will give me more time to research on the peaceful ways to die.

 

[throwaway123]

Yes absolutely. This year is my final year. I can barely take another day. Currently I'm just waiting for the right moment.

Been wanting to end this nightmare for years. I doubt that I'll stick around for another six months.

 

[AhG]

I want to see my wife and tell her I love her one last time before my birthday, which is the 26th of this month.

 

[JohnUK]

I hope to go before the end of April

 

[Whatshername]

I just feel like most people on here are just depressed or LARPING to get attention while I am actually going to do it.

Really? So, all (most) of us who are struggling one way or another should just stick a fork in it after a week on this site. Oh wait, I see it doesn't apply to you.

 

[throwaway777]

summer is my time i will be alone for some days

 

[samuraiwarrior]

How do we know how many of us have actually ctb?

 

[Its almost time]

Debating attempting hanging today

 

[GreyMagic]

Sometime this year definitely. Before June hopefully. I have some slightly old N that I want to try first. Before going through the process of buying again.

It's fustrating to be judged. My Dyspraxia makes doing everything organising everything a million times more harder. Or maybe it just a fault in my brain which makes it even more frustrating. Add extreme social anxiety and a dysfunctional constant need desire to be good enough, but knowing that won't happen. Just adds to the madness that is my life. I feel ashamed of myself and want everything to stop. To go to sleep.

 

[Dog Food]

I'm going April 1st. April Fools Day, the day before my roommate kicks me out.

 

[ShadowOfTheDay]

Yup. I'll freely admit that I'm just aimlessly procrastinating at this point; probably just protracting my own misery. Most likely because I know that my death will be my final act, and I really don't want to fuck things up (again).

 

[ShadowOfTheDay]

Yeah. Some of these people have been on the site since August 27th ffs, they should hurry up and get on with it imo.

Nice burn

 

[Pepega]

I think so, I'v been wanting to die for so many years, every new year midnight I would put myself the wish to die, this year I didn't and I feel my time has come, tired of hoping it will be better, it never is, and will only get worse if I stay.I'm trying to get some SN and the other pills when i have the money then I'm out

 

[Jc40]

I plan for near end April, when I'm off work and going to take holiday days. I don't like saying I'm going to to do it this set date because it put unnecessary pressure, I already have in mind the time scale. I have things to tie up.

 

[DreamsofDeath]

I very much hope so. I fear I won't go through with it, but hope I do. I just need to get myself together and depart properly.

 

[Mybattle]

I want to, but the guilt and the fear are holding me back.

But I am suffering hard.

Like 99% here probably, if there was an erase button I would push it now.

 

[ShadowOfTheDay]

The moment of suicide is your natural death and it comes when its time. Don't believe me? Go read about hard determinism. Every event in your life is outside your control and you may think of having free will but that's an illusion.

So the death of suicide is your natural death when you kill yourself. Similar to a person who dies in a car accident, or from cancer and or what most people perceive as natural death (dying from old age). Every event factors from the preceding event and birth is the only deciding variable. Your start "born into a family" until the end "the day you die" and all events in between are all outside human control. We're conditioned by society to think otherwise, such as we have control or capable to make our own decisions and from the religious ideology that assumes God gave us free will. All a constructed fallacy that keep inequality flourishing in the world and grave injustices for people fated by destiny to end up in jail or worse.

I'm finishing a few events that I find important. I wanted to end everything on new years but these things have been taking forever but should be done sometime this year and then I'll end my life as fate has it written. Unless it's otherwise written for me to fail and end up crippled and where I cannot succeed with trying again.

The notion of free will is not an exclusively religious concept; atheist philosophers like Camus and Sartre argued that belief in hard determinism was an example of "bad faith"--self deception with the intent to shirk one's responsibility. Nor is free will necessarily in conflict with determinism. Check out compatibilism.

 

[Samuel]

I don't have to work. I can literally smoke weed abd.play video games all day. Soo... I plan on enjoying this life as much as possible before ctb. I have a cat that i really love and my parents are alive and giving financial support.

Edit: I dont enjoy life but you get what I mean.

 

[Samuel]

I don't have to work. I can literally smoke weed abd.play video games all day. Soo... I plan on enjoying this life as much as possible before ctb. I have a cat that i really love and my parents are alive and giving financial support.

Edit. I don't enjoy life btw. But you get what i mean.