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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
The thought of dying is frightening. In someways even more frightening, would be attempting and failing and ending up permanently damaged in some significant way. Is anybody frightened of this?
 
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sueoffside

sueoffside

forget dbt and cbt i wanna ctb
Dec 11, 2019
47
Not afraid of death afraid more of my survival instinct kicking in or being left permanently fucked
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
Not afraid of death afraid more of my survival instinct kicking in or being left permanently fucked
Me too. That's probably why some people choose more gruesome methods like jumping off a very tall building or a shotgun blast to the head. Higher chance of success.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,521
Yes, I am terrified of permanent damage. It is what holds me back. I have failed at everything else in life so I do not want to add ctb to the list. Nobody should have to resort to methods that could fail, we all deserve the option of euthanasia, a peaceful exit at a time of our own choosing.
 
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sadbadpsychogirl

sadbadpsychogirl

sonofabitch
May 29, 2020
725
no
 
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Hateyouprolife

Survivalist
Sep 4, 2021
169
The thought of dying is frightening. In someways even more frightening, would be attempting and failing and ending up permanently damaged in some significant way. Is anybody frightened of this?
If I was you, I would write very convincing will thst declares your last wish is to being euthanasied should you fail. This may help you knowning that no matter what you reach your goal.
 
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Someone123

Illuminated
Oct 19, 2021
3,875
The thought of dying is frightening. In someways even more frightening, would be attempting and failing and ending up permanently damaged in some significant way. Is anybody frightened of this?
I'm actually afraid of a failed attempt even if there is no damage because then you can be held against your will and lose a job and have it be that much more difficult to find a job.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
I'm actually afraid of a failed attempt even if there is no damage because then you can be held against your will and lose a job and have it be that much more difficult to find a job.
I know. Jesus. It becomes your identity. You're the suicidal person.
 
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demuic

demuic

Life was a mistake
Sep 12, 2020
1,383
I'm more afraid of life than death.

I will ensure that I use a method that doesn't leave permanent damage and that I will not be interrupted.
 
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Meretlein

Meretlein

Moderator
Feb 15, 2019
1,199
I am not scared of death itself, I am saddened by it.

I am saddened to relinquish myself and what I could have been, especially after living such a worthless life.

I do have some fear about my suicide going wrong and ending up as vegetable but I will create an advanced directive to mitigate the horror of something like that happening.
 
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OnlyTheWind

OnlyTheWind

Serena / Meatball head
Aug 29, 2020
962
Not afraid of death, not afraid of a little pain, but I am afraid of surviving with long-term pain as a consequence or permanent damage that only makes my life worse.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
I guess, looking on the bright side, it's fortunate that there are some options that are less painful. Like SN. Although it seems like a bit of a hassle organizing all of the elements and measuring the proper amounts etc. I don't think I got particularly good grades in chemistry class. Or mathematics. Off topic, I came across this quote… Follow your dreams but do the math. I always had plenty of dreams but very bad at math. Hence my predicament.
 
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Deadweight

Deadweight

It's spilling out of me
Nov 10, 2021
74
I'm not frightened, no. But ask me again on the day and my answer might be different
 
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Butterflyfree

Butterflyfree

Student
Oct 10, 2021
189
Romeo and Juliet are together in eternity. 40,000 men and women everyday, we can be like they are, don't fear the reaper, we will be able to fly.
 
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bed

CTBed
Aug 24, 2019
919
Not afraid of death afraid more of my survival instinct kicking in or being left permanently fucked
Same here for me.

Death itself doesn't scare me. Going back to the void with no thoughts or feelings is what I want.
 
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stellabelle

stellabelle

ethereal
Dec 14, 2018
3,918
The thought of dying is frightening. In someways even more frightening, would be attempting and failing and ending up permanently damaged in some significant way. Is anybody frightened of this?
Honestly if I take enough, it should be pretty much painless.
I don't think death is frightening.
I think it's the only solution. My life has come apart. The police never helped me. My mother never helped me. My sisters never helped me. My dads girlfriend never helped me. My "boyfriend" never helped me. They just used and abused and pretended to care and stared blankly into a tv. My rapist ran free. More sexual assaults. Nobody ever loved me, nobody ever respected me, all they wanted was money or clothes and I just want to commit suicide. They get to live and be so happy and so perfect and my best option is to die. I proved it over and over again and I've been blamed for every assault and insult to injury and I am just done. Fuck your cops. Fuck your "team". Fuck your "heroes." Just fuck you guys.

Matthew herrman.
Whoever else.
Go to hell. Rot. Bastard.
Along with the rest of the thieves and liars.
Enablers and selfish people.
The heartbreakers.
And the fuckin losers.

Truth never gets you anywhere.
Nobody will ever help you or love you or want you. You'll never have a normal healthy life, oh did we "trick" you again and make you feel stupid?
Nothing changes and people are horrible and I hope they all fucking rot.

I can see through them. But they just enable each other and laugh in my face. The more dead cops the better. The more dead relatives the better. The more dead criminals the better. The more dead "nurses" the better. The better it gets. Ha ha ha.

Oh it's just so easy. It's so easy to manipulate you, to humiliate you, to hurt you, to lie to you, to lie about you, it's so easy to steal from you, it's so easy hurt you because you wish so desperately to be loved and you never were. At least not enough to ever "intervene" and remove me from the "family" of abusers.
 
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Someone123

Illuminated
Oct 19, 2021
3,875
Same here for me.

Death itself doesn't scare me. Going back to the void with no thoughts or feelings is what I want.
Truthfully my guess is you will go to a place where you feel amazing, but I guess we'll see - many ndes (near death experiences) have this, but not all. Many atheists have experienced these things in ndes - we can hope. :)
 
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bed

CTBed
Aug 24, 2019
919
Truthfully my guess is you will go to a place where you feel amazing, bt I guess we'll see - mnay ndes (near death experiences) have this, but not all. We can hope. :)
i'd rather just not exist.

to each their own. <3
 
Grumpy Bear

Grumpy Bear

People are poison
Jul 21, 2021
150
With 45 days left to go I'm starting to get nervous. But like others have said I am nervous about failing mosly.
 
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Someone123

Illuminated
Oct 19, 2021
3,875
i'd rather just not exist.

to each their own. <3
We'll see what happens - I don't think it's an option - I think when the body dies the soul keeps on living, but I guess we'll find out.
 
SuicideBoys93

SuicideBoys93

I am the lord of loneliness.
Feb 10, 2020
324
My family will be the reason I never kill myself. I don't want my mother labeled with the stigma of having a son who off'd himself. I'm here for the long run, I'll die eventually. In retrospect to the universe, we're not here long anyways.
 
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Crimsonghost3

Member
Nov 14, 2021
79
Not scared to die just scared no-one will find me for months
 
Rayzieka

Rayzieka

Not Really Here
Apr 28, 2021
637
It's not the death I'm afraid of but the trouble I'm eventually going to cause with no way of making it better.
And also the chance I fail and turn out in a hospital.
 
eternalmelancholy

eternalmelancholy

waiting for the bus
Mar 24, 2021
1,169
Yes this very natural. It is hard to make peace with dying. Some people get there and others never will.
 
Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
1,192
I'm more afraid of being rescued and then being brought to mental hospital
 
marinekiwi

marinekiwi

Student
Oct 28, 2021
148
Honestly if I take enough, it should be pretty much painless.
I don't think death is frightening.
I think it's the only solution. My life has come apart. The police never helped me. My mother never helped me. My sisters never helped me. My dads girlfriend never helped me. My "boyfriend" never helped me. They just used and abused and pretended to care and stared blankly into a tv. My rapist ran free. More sexual assaults. Nobody ever loved me, nobody ever respected me, all they wanted was money or clothes and I just want to commit suicide. They get to live and be so happy and so perfect and my best option is to die. I proved it over and over again and I've been blamed for every assault and insult to injury and I am just done. Fuck your cops. Fuck your "team". Fuck your "heroes." Just fuck you guys.

Matthew herrman.
Whoever else.
Go to hell. Rot. Bastard.
Along with the rest of the thieves and liars.
Enablers and selfish people.
The heartbreakers.
And the fuckin losers.

Truth never gets you anywhere.
Nobody will ever help you or love you or want you. You'll never have a normal healthy life, oh did we "trick" you again and make you feel stupid?
Nothing changes and people are horrible and I hope they all fucking rot.

I can see through them. But they just enable each other and laugh in my face. The more dead cops the better. The more dead relatives the better. The more dead criminals the better. The more dead "nurses" the better. The better it gets. Ha ha ha.

Oh it's just so easy. It's so easy to manipulate you, to humiliate you, to hurt you, to lie to you, to lie about you, it's so easy to steal from you, it's so easy hurt you because you wish so desperately to be loved and you never were. At least not enough to ever "intervene" and remove me from the "family" of abusers.
It seems you have been through a lot. I'm sorry life has treated you this bad. I can relate to you to some extent, because i've been also abused and no one gave a fuck about it.
Hope you can someday achieve peace from this suffering. It really hurts to be alive.
Wish the best for you.
 
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stellabelle

ethereal
Dec 14, 2018
3,918
It seems you have been through a lot. I'm sorry life has treated you this bad. I can relate to you to some extent, because i've been also abused and no one gave a fuck about it.
Hope you can someday achieve peace from this suffering. It really hurts to be alive.
Wish the best for you.
I'm sorry you've been through it too.
You know, my dad loved me but my abusers loved one thing: abusing, forcing, lying, stealing, disrespecting, trying to coerce, convince, manipulate, harm, and ignore, ignore, ignore.
 

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