Are you at the "point of no return" with ctb ?

[Samuel]

I know I am.
ctb is my only option to find peace and stop the mental torture my life has become.
I am 26 male and because of my social anxiety have no financial or social future.
I have ansolutely no intention on living my whole life in poverty being a wage slave and with no gf.
Plus I don't want to keep living in my shitty and depeessing country.

If you're suicidal due to social anxiety, then you have no reason to be here. If there is a physical, external factor, and reason behind your anxiety, e.g. being ugly, then CTB. This just sums up my situation.

 

[Samuel]

I know I am.
ctb is my only option to find peace and stop the mental torture my life has become.
I am 26 male and because of my social anxiety have no financial or social future.
I have ansolutely no intention on living my whole life in poverty being a wage slave and with no gf.
Plus I don't want to keep living in my shitty and depeessing country.

I am 25 and am in the same boat. Except I live in usa xd.

 

[felix]

I know I am.
ctb is my only option to find peace and stop the mental torture my life has become.
I am 26 male and because of my social anxiety have no financial or social future.
I have ansolutely no intention on living my whole life in poverty being a wage slave and with no gf.
Plus I don't want to keep living in my shitty and depeessing country.

Social anxieties ruined my life too

 

[Struggling]

I attempted night night method yesterday and now have burst capillaries. Red dots all over my face. Just wished I held on a little longer. Still a struggle. Lack motivation for anything. Wish it wasn't as painful. Really need to try again

 

[Numbtopain97]

I feel the same.

 

[eve2004]

A loss for methods? You need to get more creative.

I get it. The best substances are hard to get the easy ones are hard to administer if you're dumb as nails like me. Give me the most lethal pills and I'd do it in a heartbeat. No pun intended.

 

[Etherealdignity333]

Yes.

 

[k75]

Closing on on it.

I'm waiting on some bad news and packing up my apartment right now.

 

[GrizzlyGrapefruit]

Pretty much.

Everything that has caused me to get to this point has only gotten worse over the years, with the most recent addition being quite a bad case of chronic insomnia. This started happening at the beginning of this year, and it's really been the nail in the coffin for me because it feels like I never get a break from the anguish of my health conditions anymore.

 

[transgenderfailure]

Yes. I will never be able to function in society. I am transgender. I have had severe anxiety since I can remember. Leaving the house is a chore. It's just a big unfixable mess.

 

[k3v3r]

Yes, i am going to ctb. Thiings won't get better.

 

[Poodle]

I am at the point of no return and it feels good. I have set a date and I'm in the process of writing my will. I saw my parents tonight and thought that would be the last time I see them. There are a few other things that I have thought would be the last time too, like taking a test at school and eating sushi.

 

[woxihuanni]

I am at the point of no return but am scared of botching it. I have bought caffeine powder and need to get my hands on some antiemetics. Meanwhile I am trying to see if I can do it in a better way.

Whatever I do with my life, it can only be a struggle to survive at extreme odds, not happiness.

 

[Fadinglife]

I am soon reaching there

 

[melanar]

Not on a point of no return but im near it.
My life since January has gone downhill due to a series of mistakes i did.
I neglected my loved one to the point of rupture and i am left hollow. My job took a toll and im pratically unemployed. I dont even have a stable home anymore. Nothing im my life is stable and my health took a toll too.
I'm just waiting for the right moment to use charcoal in my car. I bet i will leave a lot of people suffering as i have a loving family but i cannot live for the sake of others being in this state.
It's so selfish but, im so tired of this..

 

[Readytogo227]

I'm not sure. without my pills, my thoughts tell me that this misery is me. It's how I really, truly am, and the pills make me into a fake "normal" fraud of a human being. But with the pills I can somewhat function. Which is fake? Which is real? Which voice is the right way? I don't know and it drives me mad.

 

[belrgh]

I'm getting really close, i can't level myself out anymore. It's like 20 hours of depression and maybe 1 or 2 of feeling like maybe i can wait it out until life gets better but then back to wanting to just end it. I can't even be in love properly anymore because if i'm not getting constant attention and affection my brain just sends me to every possible worst case outcome for why i'm not good enough or why it's not worth loving someone when i won't be able to offer them anything in life

 

[Wayfaerer]

I am at the point of no return; I can't even function anymore. It's either CTB or live the rest of my life wallowing in self-pity over things that are both damning and cannot be changed.

I'm not sure. without my pills, my thoughts tell me that this misery is me. It's how I really, truly am, and the pills make me into a fake "normal" fraud of a human being. But with the pills I can somewhat function. Which is fake? Which is real? Which voice is the right way? I don't know and it drives me mad.

I understand that sentiment. Before I turned 25, I was very determined to get off of SSRI's and stay off them forever. I was doing awesome a year later but then a few months afterward I feel into the deepest pit of despair in my life over something that had flown under the radar for years until it blew up in my face in an instant. I decided to self-medicate with "dietary supplements" after a couple of months of heavy bring drinking rather than returning to bigpharma with my tail inbetween my legs. The self-medication isn't working that well anymore and my situation had gotten even worse since all of this had began, so it looks like my fate is sealed.