valentine
Student
- Apr 2, 2019
- 101
sorry I'm advance for any typos, I'm a little tipsy.
I've been suicidal for as long as I can remember. I wish I'd died from my first attempt when I was 15.I'm not sure exactly how to word this. I guess I'm usually just waiting for a "push" to ctb. I know I do want to die, I'm just scared. I'm not at peace with dying at all. I'm terrified. I'm an atheist so I believe there's absolutely nothing after death. I don't know if I'm ready for that. How do you cope with the afterlife? Do you feel comfortable letting go of the life you have and becoming nothing?
I know for many people their lives are so bad that the nothingness is easier than continuing living. I feel that way most of the time. My survival instinct keeps pushing me to believe there's something better to come. I wish I could just let that go and end it.
I've been suicidal for as long as I can remember. I wish I'd died from my first attempt when I was 15.I'm not sure exactly how to word this. I guess I'm usually just waiting for a "push" to ctb. I know I do want to die, I'm just scared. I'm not at peace with dying at all. I'm terrified. I'm an atheist so I believe there's absolutely nothing after death. I don't know if I'm ready for that. How do you cope with the afterlife? Do you feel comfortable letting go of the life you have and becoming nothing?
I know for many people their lives are so bad that the nothingness is easier than continuing living. I feel that way most of the time. My survival instinct keeps pushing me to believe there's something better to come. I wish I could just let that go and end it.