19. My reasons for being here/being suicidal include an overbearing domestic situation, cognitive and emotional problems that I presume to be the symptoms of an undiagnosed neurological condition, and general philosophical pessimism (which I guess my circumstances predispose me towards).
Financial independence would certainly improve my situation, and I am more than halfway through a degree that promises good job opportunities— but ultimately I feel like I'd have to undergo some sort of psychoneurological shift to be happy considering that at this point, I can't find it in me to
want to recover (or rather, I don't want it enough to put in the requisite effort. Hell— I can't seem to want to put in any effort at all).
I think this is a good question to ask here and I understand why younger/teenage suicides are sometimes perceived as particularly tragic. That said, I don't think that a young adult's will to die should be negated on the grounds of, for instance, perceived encephalic underdevelopment. After all, there is no particular age at which the human brain matures (
the idea that this happens around 25 is a myth) or at which one's cognitive abilities collectively peak.