Are you 100% sure you're going to ctb?

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Or you have any hope?

 

[AJ95]

Unless my life dramatically improves, I'll be dead by christmas, probably in the next couple of months

 

[Dreamless Sleep]

Yes.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I have some hope, but I remain doubtful. Either way, I have a 99% chance of ctb'ing after I turn 30. That 1% chance is if my life does turn around in the next 3.5 years and even that seems a little too high of an estimate.

 

[yep]

85% really wants to die, I think about shooting myself a lot, drinking sn and never waking up, and hanging myself. The other 15% think about me recovering from those things and magically getting better even tho I know it won't.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I am 100% sure ctb is my fate whether it's sooner or later. Ideally I would love to live and have a few good years but that feels like a far off dream. I just know if nothing improves soon I don't know how much longer I can last.

 

[nitroautnz]

I am really tired of living, but i can't say for sure that i will ctb. I don't know how i will react when I will have to do it, and I always have the thought of the pain I will inflict to the people i love if i do it and its broke my heart every time.

 

[FarAcrossTheWater]

My life is over. I can't live a happy life. I'm tired of fighting battles that will never end. The hope of a peaceful exit is the only thing keeping me going everyday. When I wake up, my first thoughts are hope that I will die peacefully.

 

[Life_and_Death]

I feel like I've been getting better but I still want to die. I still can't see the future. But it's not actively "I wish I had..... So I could...." it's more passively where the thought just kinda pops into my head and I don't really disagree with it. So I'm not sure how I'm going to die but I do know as of right now it still feels like it will be by my own hand

 

[demuic]

If the world won't take me out of it, I'll take myself out. I know I'll CTB eventually unless I happen to die by some accident or physical illness like cancer. The only thing keeping me here is my mother. I know when she is no longer around (which hurts me to even say), I'll definitely no longer be here.

 

[sadworld]

Im thinking about ctb everyday all day long, im 99% sure i will ctb and i hope to do it as soon as possible.

 

[miguel6565]

Yea still dont know hen but 100% sure

 

[BlackCatTalk]

Yeah, completely sure about this

 

[Spitfire]

I don't have any doubt. I am 100% sure about it.

An accident or something else could happen? I know this is outside of the context in which you are asking, but outside of this I am 100% certain.

I'm not sure why this makes me sad sometimes? It does though. Its probably because I wish it didn't have to be this way?

I've gotten to be there for soo many people at their passing. A real honor and all of them were the most privileged moments of my life.

In the environment I was in people were not dying nicely. I try to remember that part of it. It could have been the environment?

My idea of having it happen any other way is really distorted. Sometimes I think I did see too much.

 

[voidman]

Yeah.. I think it's just a matter of when.

 

[AmDead]

I'm not 100% sure I'm going to ctb but it's not like I have some hope that things will get better. I can't be 100% sure because I'm doubting my ability to work up enough courage to ctb.

 

[Adamsnolife]

Yes I'm totally sure I'll end up killing myself. Hopefully before 2020 ends

 

[Thatdude]

I feel like I am 87% sure I will CTB. The little hope I have and things I care about keep me from doing it. But sooner or later that will run out.

I am trying however.

 

[Wayfaerer]

I am certain to do it. To not do it would have terrible consequences for myself.

 

[siickmann3]

Saturday im hotel room. SN

 

[Conker]

Hope isn't an unexplainable mystery, and as for real hopes there's only 2 that anybody apart of the ultimate good has ever had.

Regardless, yeah I'm 99% sure this is how it will end. I've given up on this place, don't want to open up my eyes ever again within such a poisoned world. There's this fiery rage within me that I need to extinguish. Least in nonexistence none of this will matter any longer to my current me & I that's animating this walking corpse. It's depressing to realize that as my level of awareness became higher, my will for ceasing to exist only got stronger. You know how they say "he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow"

Although you didn't increase the sorrow, it's just that you unveiled this reality to see how much grief you and everybody else is in. You've stopped buying into the potent illusion of fake happiness & fake peace. All will finally be clear only once spiritual eradication (amnesia) has been effectively solved. Until then, hopelessness will remain as humanity's bride.



And if the devils running this insane asylum forced this false reality onto us, then they're the real virus that have to be deleted from existence.

 

[Homecoming]

Or you have any hope?

End of Oct is my date, and I can't suffer like this anymore

 

[Gamja]

I don't have hope, not even one bit.
What I have are obligations and a concern about the well-being of those I leave behind.

 

[I screwed up]

I dont feel like I am capable of doing things required to survive in society. Ctb seems my only option

 

[nomorepainss]

yes

 

[Meditation guide]

I'm 100% sure I don't want to die in a hospital or a nursing home. I've seen those places and what goes on in them, and what the people in them are subjected to.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Positive. Just look at how ugly this world is. Everywhere you go, everything is crumbling and full of decay. Garbage in the streets, exhaust fumes in the air. How anyone could even want to live in this Hell is beyond me.

 

[mathieu]

Yes, I'm certain but I don't know when I will be truly ready.

 

[141592653]

I hope I'll kill myself. I don't know when, but if there is one thing I wanna control is my death, since I didn't control my birth.
Anyway I'm 141% sure I'll be dead young in regard to all the shit I take that will ruin my health anyway.

I don't wan't to die in a car crash that is stupid death. And I HATE cars as much as phones.
Unless it's a ctb car crash, but I don't like this method for obvious reasons [CLUE : see the upper line]

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

yes, 110 %

Hope has tormented and mistreated, imprisoned and starved me for 37 years.

I killed this bitch together with the Si and destroyed it.