Are there people who stand to gain or lose from your suicide?

[blue_muse]

I'll start by saying that my relative, who brought me up, along with my sibling, stand to gain financially and emotionally. Each have gently tried pushing me towards CTB as soon as possible. The sibling's sided with a nemesis, who's tried bullying me the last few years. It's also because I stood in the way of my sibling trying to use my relative.

Those 2 would cry crocodile tears and use my death as a golden ticket; an excuse to behave badly, play on peoples' sympathy, erase any trace of me, tell others "There's nothing I could have done to stop ***" etc.

The only loss for those mentioned is they'd be no one to gaslight, control, provide unpaid help, scapegoat for their failings, wear down emotionally and physically, be nice to one day then horrid the next.

Still, at the moment I'm an inconvenience, especially to my relative. ***'ll make vocal gestures or start an argument as a way of saying "I've had enough of you now, go away" instead of being mature and saying "I don't mean to be rude, but I'd like to be alone".

So called friends would just use my death as a hashtag to look like they cared.

Healthcare professionals; the law; and the people who've tried to make daily life a living hell, would get into unimaginable trouble.


How about anyone else?

 

[Seeking_Peace]

My sis/closest relative will keep my possessions and bank account. I'm not close with my other siblings so it will be an easy transaction.

 

[blue_muse]

My sis/closest relative will keep my possessions and bank account. I'm not close with my other siblings so it will be an easy transaction.

That's horrible; seeing what they can get, like you're not human .

 

[Seeking_Peace]

That's horrible; seeing what they can get, like you're not human .

I'm ok with my sister taking my funds. She was there for me when I was homeless and we still have a close relationship. She even put me on her living will.

 

[outrider567]

An organization called St Judes Childrens Cancer Research Center in Tennessee is the only beneficiary of my Will

 

[Littlepaws]

Just my ex.

While yes our relationship didn't work out. He's probably the only "good" person I know. Not a bad bone in his body or soul.

He probably won't be too surprised by my passing, but he will be surprised that I've left him everything.

 

[Ligottian]

An organization called St Judes Childrens Cancer Research Center in Tennessee is the only beneficiary of my Will

I make modest donations to them.
My sister will inherit my estate. Better her than the state.

 

[blue_muse]

Just my ex.

While yes our relationship didn't work out. He's probably the only "good" person I know. Not a bad bone in his body or soul.

He probably won't be too surprised by my passing, but he will be surprised that I've left him everything.

It's nice to hear you have someone worth giving everything to like that .

 

[Resinn66]

No problem, before ctb, I will spend all my money and enjoy it.

 

[blue_muse]

No problem, before ctb, I will spend all my money and enjoy it.

There's an idea !

 

[jamie_]

the person who abandoned me and who already treats me as though i am dead will benefit significantly

 

[blue_muse]

the person who abandoned me and who already treats me as though i am dead will benefit significantly

How so, if you don't mind me asking ?

If it's any consolation I hear you about abandonment, my relative's done the same in different ways.

 

[Darrenloses]

Gain... They would no longer hear my crybaby ramblings about life's hurdles

 

[Rd2nowhere]

gain

 

[blue_muse]

Gain... They would no longer hear my crybaby ramblings about life's hurdles

You don't sound like a crybaby to me. Perhaps they're projecting their own inability to deal with life's hurdles onto you.

 

[outatime_85]

As my family's black sheep, lone failure and mistake, they would gain peace since they would no longer have me as a stain on their name and would not have to deal with me being an utter failure at everything.

 

[~Q~]

I can only hope the people i question will gain peace by my exit

 

[jamie_]

How so, if you don't mind me asking ?

If it's any consolation I hear you about abandonment, my relative's done the same in different ways.

because how i am treated is how i will be. i will no longer be trying to prove it wrong and trying to get them to know that i exist. it's probably really annoying, it will be one less issue for them.

 

[nightnightnitrite]

My ex stands to gain greatly in my suicide, my baby stands to lose significantly. My ex could have the family he wanted to with me out of the photo, but my baby would never know how much their mom loved them.

 

[Symbiote]

Gain of course.

 

[blue_muse]

because how i am treated is how i will be. i will no longer be trying to prove it wrong and trying to get them to know that i exist. it's probably really annoying, it will be one less issue for them.

I get you completely. There's only so many times you can try.

 

[jamie_]

I get you completely. There's only so many times you can try.

unfortunately i am just a inconvenience

 

[Graham]

Only 'asset' I have is my house

About 700k

Goes to whoever is left

I'd get nothing if it was the other way around

 

[blue_muse]

unfortunately i am just a inconvenience

You and me both .

 

[jamie_]

You and me both .

i used to just be convenient when i thought i was more, now i'm just an inconvenience wishing i at least could go back to that.

 

[blue_muse]

i used to just be convenient when i thought i was more, now i'm just an inconvenience wishing i at least could go back to that.

If you were convenient, consider that they'd likely be no end to people using you.

It sounds like you're seeing people for who they actually are. With my circumstances, I've come to the realisation that my relative sees me as extension of ***self- I'm not a person.

There was one time I self-harmed and *** came to my bedroom, stroked my head and quietly said "Don't bother calling an ambulance" then went to bed expecting to find me dead the next day.

 

[jamie_]

If you were convenient, consider that they'd likely be no end to people using you.

It sounds like you're seeing people for who they actually are. With my circumstances, I've come to the realisation that my relative sees me as extension of ***self- I'm not a person.

There was one time I self-harmed and *** came to my bedroom, stroked my head and quietly said "Don't bother calling an ambulance" then went to bed expecting to find me dead the next day.

exactly this. it was always about my position in relation to her and an extension of her image and not myself. an example is she would take sly pics when i was shirtless and "accidentally" send them to her friends. it was never about liking me it was about liking to have a partner.

funnily enough i had a similar scenario where i self-harmed and they started complaining about how there was blood on the bedsheets and would need to change them. a world apart from how i acted when they self-harmed a while beforehand and how they walked out in the middle of the night to stop me from being mad at them which i did as i was more panicky, upset and concerned for their them first and foremost.

 

[blue_muse]

exactly this. it was always about my position in relation to her and an extension of her image and not myself. an example is she would take sly pics when i was shirtless and "accidentally" send them to her friends. it was never about liking me it was about liking to have a partner.

funnily enough i had a similar scenario where i self-harmed and they started complaining about how there was blood on the bedsheets and would need to change them. a world apart from how i acted when they self-harmed a while beforehand and how they walked out in the middle of the night to stop me from being mad at them which i did as i was more panicky, upset and concerned for their them first and foremost.

I've got a health condition that becomes visible in some social situations. People have stared, laughed etc., so I can imagine how violating that must have felt.

Bedsheets are more important than an attempted suicide...jeez! There's an irony, because those you helped expect you to play counsellor to their exaggerated problems.

 

[JCcog]

My siblings will get more inheritance

 

[KQuotientW]

Yeah, my relatives who will have their hand out, hoping I left them something. Also, Vic Pol (Aussie lingo) who have bullied and harassed me for 3 decades because my ex was a cop they covered up for. Finally, they will have silenced me. Finally, I will have stopped sharing my story with the media to raise awareness of police thuggery. They win. Plus, I've been giving my stuff away to charity. Other people get to use it.