Discussion Are there methods that scare you?

[ilvgore]

Methods that u wouldnt attempt and why?

 

[WatchmeBurn]

I'm scared of all of them!

 

[FuneralCry]

Any method that has a risk of going wrong, what I personally fear is trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse torture and agony, it's so horrific me how there is no limit as to how much a human can suffer in this existence and what is so cruel to me is how the option for me to just simply cease existing in peace is denied even know this existence was so harmfully imposed in the first place causing so much unnecessary suffering as a result. I suffer so much from how I cannot just fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never exist ever again as permanent non-existence really is all I see as positive, I'd never wish for this torturous unnecessary existence, existence really does feel like a mistake to me and it's one that only permanent non-existence can bring me peace from, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence.

 

[Szarur-abi]

Mine top are:
-Drinking a lot and lying naked outside to die from hypothermia
-Shotgun shot inside mouth, cause of mess it would leave for people discovering my body
-Train decapitation/transit related deaths cause of trauma caused to drivers
-cutting veins cause high pain and low success
-hanging but only for risks of ending brain damaged if survived, to same category would be CO poisoning tho i find it the best option if done correctly providing most peaceful experience from what i know
-jumping from high place, im scared of heights also i find terryfying being concious while falling toward concrete
-drowning while concious

I listed so much that there isn't much methods to choose from for me

 

[Andrew10]

Unfortunately I am from Spain and the only most accessible method is innert gas but at the same time I am terrified since I was a survivor of a failed attempt I am reconsidering getting a gun license but I still keep innert gas as an option I remembered using it 2 years ago thinking I was going CTB, everything was going well until they last moment an unknown feeling kicked in, I don't know if it was fear or Survival Instinct, a kind of barrier that prevented me from CTB It made me self-sabotage the method at the time of CTB, adding to the little preparation I dedicated to it, as a result I became unconscious in bed, it was almost instantaneous, out of nowhere I woke up with a huge headache without even being able to get out of bed, my vision was permanently damaged, it was like they turned me off and on again. I couldn't move for 2 days and I'm honestly glad it was just that. Since he had the risk of ending up being a vegetable forever. Many people ask me for help, but I have little knowledge of this and I am afraid of causing a poor and innocent life to end up trapped forever being a vegetable, so if someone had the intention of asking me how, they better forget about it, I already suffer more than enough with my life to put an innocent person at risk. The fact that the consequences could be a vegetable terrifies me too much, but at the same time I perceive this in another way, I see this unknown feeling as an obstacle to my peace, I feel that it is a final boss that I must defeat to achieve my peace and I think defeat it no matter what it costs me , unexpectedly, thinking that way gives me internal motivation lol. Its a matter of gaining motivation, courage and the will to die in my case or reach the limit and say fuck it and finish everything

 

[Roadrunner]

Mine are, drowning, burning to death, hanging and suffocating

 

[ilvgore]

I'm scared of all of them!

Thats valid. Especially paired with survival instincts and fear of the consequences.

 

[human909]

Drowning and burning to death are the method that scares me the most, I think hanging also scares me a bit as I don't know how painful that can be.

 

[ilvgore]

Any method that has a risk of going wrong, what I personally fear is trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse torture and agony, it's so horrific me how there is no limit as to how much a human can suffer in this existence and what is so cruel to me is how the option for me to just simply cease existing in peace is denied even know this existence was so harmfully imposed in the first place causing so much unnecessary suffering as a result. I suffer so much from how I cannot just fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never exist ever again as permanent non-existence really is all I see as positive, I'd never wish for this torturous unnecessary existence, existence really does feel like a mistake to me and it's one that only permanent non-existence can bring me peace from, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence.

Yeah i get it, existence is suffering. I hate experiencing pain and also to not have on reliable method and also the pain if survival instincts, like someone wanted us to suffer..

 

[Valhala]

Jumping from a height, I have always had a fear of heights and it is a method that I would probably never try. Hanging is also an absolute no-method for me because its correct execution is not at all simple and death by suffocation creates unnecessary agony.

 

[ilvgore]

Mine top are:
-Drinking a lot and lying naked outside to die from hypothermia
-Shotgun shot inside mouth, cause of mess it would leave for people discovering my body
-Train decapitation/transit related deaths cause of trauma caused to drivers
-cutting veins cause high pain and low success
-hanging but only for risks of ending brain damaged if survived, to same category would be CO poisoning tho i find it the best option if done correctly providing most peaceful experience from what i know
-jumping from high place, im scared of heights also i find terryfying being concious while falling toward concrete
-drowning while concious

I listed so much that there isn't much methods to choose from for me

Your reasoning is very valid and very human, u dont want others to experience trauma and thats very thoughtful of you. I respect that. But you are right not many options are left then:( its cruel that there isnt at least an easy way out bro xd its so draining to look for the perfect method too

 

[Valhala]

Unfortunately I am from Spain and the only most accessible method is innert gas but at the same time I am terrified since I was a survivor of a failed attempt I am reconsidering getting a gun license but I still keep innert gas as an option I remembered using it 2 years ago thinking I was going CTB, everything was going well until they last moment an unknown feeling kicked in, I don't know if it was fear or Survival Instinct, a kind of barrier that prevented me from CTB It made me self-sabotage the method at the time of CTB, adding to the little preparation I dedicated to it, as a result I became unconscious in bed, it was almost instantaneous, out of nowhere I woke up with a huge headache without even being able to get out of bed, my vision was permanently damaged, it was like they turned me off and on again. I couldn't move for 2 days and I'm honestly glad it was just that. Since he had the risk of ending up being a vegetable forever. Many people ask me for help, but I have little knowledge of this and I am afraid of causing a poor and innocent life to end up trapped forever being a vegetable, so if someone had the intention of asking me how, they better forget about it, I already suffer more than enough with my life to put an innocent person at risk. The fact that the consequences could be a vegetable terrifies me too much, but at the same time I perceive this in another way, I see this unknown feeling as an obstacle to my peace, I feel that it is a final boss that I must defeat to achieve my peace and I think defeat it no matter what it costs me , unexpectedly, thinking that way gives me internal motivation lol. Its a matter of gaining motivation, courage and the will to die in my case or reach the limit and say fuck it and finish everything

How did you self-sabotage the inert gas method and still lose consciousness?

 

[Gangrel]

Drowning, burning and accidents of course, i don't wanna be mangled or fucked up or something like that

 

[ilvgore]

Unfortunately I am from Spain and the only most accessible method is innert gas but at the same time I am terrified since I was a survivor of a failed attempt I am reconsidering getting a gun license but I still keep innert gas as an option I remembered using it 2 years ago thinking I was going CTB, everything was going well until they last moment an unknown feeling kicked in, I don't know if it was fear or Survival Instinct, a kind of barrier that prevented me from CTB It made me self-sabotage the method at the time of CTB, adding to the little preparation I dedicated to it, as a result I became unconscious in bed, it was almost instantaneous, out of nowhere I woke up with a huge headache without even being able to get out of bed, my vision was permanently damaged, it was like they turned me off and on again. I couldn't move for 2 days and I'm honestly glad it was just that. Since he had the risk of ending up being a vegetable forever. Many people ask me for help, but I have little knowledge of this and I am afraid of causing a poor and innocent life to end up trapped forever being a vegetable, so if someone had the intention of asking me how, they better forget about it, I already suffer more than enough with my life to put an innocent person at risk. The fact that the consequences could be a vegetable terrifies me too much, but at the same time I perceive this in another way, I see this unknown feeling as an obstacle to my peace, I feel that it is a final boss that I must defeat to achieve my peace and I think defeat it no matter what it costs me , unexpectedly, thinking that way gives me internal motivation lol. Its a matter of gaining motivation, courage and the will to die in my case or reach the limit and say fuck it and finish everything

Wow! You described my situation very well and everything i am afraid of. The feeling we have before death whether guilt, fear of unknown, fear of becoming a vegetable. Who ever send us here universe or god wants us to suffer and it even doesn't want us to have a peaceful leaving without these horrible thoughts. Survival instinct even if u wanna die will still be prevalent in some case. I think the final boss u mentioned is the unknown compared with the survival instict... :(

Mine are, drowning, burning to death, hanging and suffocating

Damn, i saw monks u burned to death. I couldn't ever imagine to die like this. I would rather freeze i think.

 

[identity0]

Anything with a non-negligible failure rate that can lead to surviving and becoming disabled. That can lead to horror for decades, with you unable to ctb. Even if there's 1% chance of it, it isn't worth risking that horror. This includes jumping from height, in front of trains, or doing something like hanging in a setting that you can be found and "saved".

To a lesser extent, all methods are scary.

 

[JesiBel]

I am terrified of any method that involves a "machine": trains, cars, buses, trucks. Or elements like electricity or fire..

 

[tirednwired]

I feel like most methods I can hypothetically see myself doing but I would never attempt CTB by cutting. Such a painful way to go with a painfully small success rate.

 

[astonishedturnip]

Cutting, it makes me squeamish and I can't even watch when it's done in a film.

Train decapitation or anything involving trains, I read something from a train conductor saying they can't get the image of people who were (accidentally) killed by trains out of their heads -- the look of panic and fear in their eyes when they realize they can't get out of the way in time.

Shotgun suicide, I know it's most effective but the gore is just awful and way more horrible than a regular GSW. I know that's the point, but still lol.

Drowning or burning while conscious. Unconscious is OK in my book.

I also have always gotten the willies from full suspension hanging, but it's not fully out of my consideration.

 

[Andrew10]

How did you self-sabotage the inert gas method and still lose consciousness?

It was seconds before I fell unconscious, I decided to reduce the amount and open the bag a little because of fear or that similar feeling, they made me act that way, even so I already inhaled a certain amount and fell unconscious

Wow! You described my situation very well and everything i am afraid of. The feeling we have before death whether guilt, fear of unknown, fear of becoming a vegetable. Who ever send us here universe or god wants us to suffer and it even doesn't want us to have a peaceful leaving without these horrible thoughts. Survival instinct even if u wanna die will still be prevalent in some case. I think the final boss u mentioned is the unknown compared with the survival instict... :(

I agree, I never imagined that suicide was something difficult, it seems as if they wanted to keep us here by force and this is done with the intention of not allowing our freedom. This gives meaning to the quote "Suicide is living in a body that fights to survive with a mind that tries to die." But for me I simply take it as an obstacle in my goal that I will overcome no matter what it costs. If you are reading this, I send you a lot of encouragement, support and luck on your path whatever your decision is. I hope you have a good day friend. Peace ✌

 

[Intoxicated]

How did you self-sabotage the inert gas method and still lose consciousness?

When you resume breathing with fresh air after clouding of consciousness has started, it takes several seconds to stop further drifting into unconsciousness, even if you breathe intensively. So if breathing with air is resumed at some late moment, when loss of consciousness is near, the complete blackout becomes imminent.

 

[SeekingOasis]

Definitely scared of all of them, it's part of the reason why I am still here.

 

[LostLily]

Practically all of them. Especially gun shot to the head. Because if you miss you will be vegetable and / or disfigured.

I wished I had N

 

[Namelesa]

Would definitely prefer not to try:
Any of the non-methods cus of low success and if its painfully don't want to have to live with that pain after the failed attempt especially with cutting.

Burning as its really painful but I would maybe attempt if was desperate and had the resources and could do it when I know I can't be stopped (trapped by parents so hard to do that)

Drowning cus of the drowning process and that it would be less likely to work for me cus I know how to swim decently.

Getting run over by car or train cus of unreliability and fear of getting run over by vehicles in general since I was a child (often had nightmares about getting run over by cars or getting across roads). Not really against it cus of traumatizing others with it as I think its justifiable to do it due to being in a lot of pain.

Not so scared of:
Not really scared of hanging but can't deal with the pain of partial to be able to pass out and don't have access to full suspension.

Would definitely use a gun if I had access. Don't care about how my body will look for others.

Would definitely try to attempt to jump if I could access a tall enough place but I don't know how scared I would actually be when up there.

 

[losingsteam3141]

Anything except SN, N, and handgun in mouth. Other methods too low chance of success or too painful

 

[goredpet]

drowning sounds horrible, hanging scares me for some reason, but partial hanging i feel like i could do. SN is scary to me but i know there's a reason it's so popular on here, so im buying it anyways and am going to try to work on that. i like that even if i fail, ill probably be fine. burning sounds horrible, and i wouldn't want to use a firearm because of the mess it would leave

 

[Igotaplane]

There's a lot of methods that scare me a lot but mostly because of the time factor, and how long it takes. A gunshot to the head is instant with no time to process what's going on, but falling from a big height scares me because I don't want to feel regret and scared from halfway down. I guess my ideal method is something I don't have time to regret or feel scared of dying. So anything that is drawn out scares me especially if I can't go back and I know I'm going to die the entire time

 

[billie]

my friend died by jumping in front of the train but i could never do that

 

[RiverOfLife]

Jumping because I am scared of heights.
Trains because it's not just scary, I wouldn't want to traumatize the driver
Guns are iffy- they scare me in general and while the success rate is good, the consequences of failure are horrible.

 

[_Maya]

the only method that really scares is cutting, and certain poisons. I remember hearing a lot of horror stories relating to attempted suicides where people drank bleach, and cutting just seems unnecessarily painful for a low chance of actually succeeding.

 

[mafuyu]

Trying to cut myself to death. I'm too cowardice for that and it's hard to achieve from what I heard. Looks nice in cinema though! A beautiful woman gets drunk and lies in her bathtub, then you see the water become tainted by blood… that's just for the movies, though. I'd rather just shoot myself.