
ecmnesia
the only thing humans are equal in is death
- Aug 30, 2020
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thanks for all of the suggestions guys. but i do agree with @I'm fragile I do not have the confidence to do such a thing and I honestly believe that would call unwanted attention on me, seems like painting a red target on my forehead, and that might rise suspicion that somethings wrong. I am indeed very anxious and definetly not a good liar. In any circumstances I wish to involve the police on this, in fact that's what I am try to avoid.
Yesterday i kind of lost my mind after being force to postpone my cbt date, that really threw me off and I was freaking out, about to disregard all of my preparations and act on impulse. Now that I am rested and a bit calmer I can see that this is not a good idea, I've been waiting for years so I guess I can keep on going for a little longer.
That might sound silly, but I want to have some dignity in death, I am not a fugitive and I should not be forced to hide myself as if I am a criminal I believe I have the right to leave in peace, in a calm way. Choosing this path is already hard enough, I definitely do not wish to carry one more burden and worrying about being found, when i could wait for an opportunity where I would surely not be, seems reckless and too stressful. My mind is set, i have everything I need to catch the bus, all that's left is finding the right time. As hard as it might be, i will make an effort to keep up until there.
Thanks a lot for all your help, i genuinely appreciate it.
Yesterday i kind of lost my mind after being force to postpone my cbt date, that really threw me off and I was freaking out, about to disregard all of my preparations and act on impulse. Now that I am rested and a bit calmer I can see that this is not a good idea, I've been waiting for years so I guess I can keep on going for a little longer.
That might sound silly, but I want to have some dignity in death, I am not a fugitive and I should not be forced to hide myself as if I am a criminal I believe I have the right to leave in peace, in a calm way. Choosing this path is already hard enough, I definitely do not wish to carry one more burden and worrying about being found, when i could wait for an opportunity where I would surely not be, seems reckless and too stressful. My mind is set, i have everything I need to catch the bus, all that's left is finding the right time. As hard as it might be, i will make an effort to keep up until there.
Thanks a lot for all your help, i genuinely appreciate it.