I am totally surprised at my phone call with the shrink earlier. Totally not what I was expecting, I don't have to go into hospital unless I feel that it would be helpful [ I don't]. She then discussed my current situation in quite a caring way. She also suggested some trauma therapy and working with the psychologist to find better coping strategies. I was speechless, and she even asked if I would consider it rather than dictating. So I agreed to give it a go, emdr I think. Never heard of it, but i'll try as it can't be worse than this living hell.