AOE else feels 10/10 that suicide is the only way out given the horrid afermath of sevral inhibitions from mental illness, chronic pain..etc. But..

[Ineedtodie]

..is persuing something that might miraculously helps in way ?
After a consultation with a dentist, I arranged to have a simple surgery(i would consider very cheap) called lingual frenectomy which is a surgical procedure that removes a band of tissue that connects the underside of the tongue with the bottom of the mouth. This procedure treats patients having difficulty eating or speaking.
doing it for the hope of fixing my speech impedement.
Its just wierd because I almost went trough with my attempt yesterday.
And find my self buying mouth wash and anxiety and sleeping pills so I can make the surgery Tomorrow.
All of this in a desperate attempt to pospone Ctbing.

 

[makethepainstop]

If something offers to improve the quality of your life, I say try it. Help should always be appreciated!

 

[yeti]

All the best!

 

[Cryptonite]

Yes, sadly, I believe CTB is sometimes the only way out. I really hate what they call "supportive treatment", or today they just simply call it "treatment". It is a confusing euphemism that makes you believe that there is some real change. But what it actually means is "desperate attempts at short-term improvement". In the long run, our life is still screwed up.

 

[Ineedtodie]

Hurt like hell. No idea if it's worth it.

 

[actual_fox]

Hurt like hell. No idea if it's worth it.

Oh wow. Best luck in recovery