Discussion Anyone with some physical disease active right now?

[Cryptonite]

Hi everyone,

I haven't been seeing many people lately whose major reason for CTB is some physical disease. Are some of you guys out there? My back disease has ruined my life at an early age. Anybody else?

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I'm on this site because I have multiple incurable chronic illnesses. It's only going to get worse in the future for me.

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Yes, me too

I have reached the future / the point of no return.

But I hoped against hope that things might improve. I was not consciously prepared for the worst— but subconsciously I was expecting it. Hence 2x failed ODs.

Terrifying , multiple neglected/ untreated/ mistreated — now chronic physical conditions.

Cruel, non-consented traumatic procedures / toxic / carcinogenic medications — some described partially across several random posts.

Too horrifying/ triggering to list the surreal catalogue of catastrophes ; accumulating damage; resulting consequences are rapidly degenerative / incurable and excruciating 24/7.

Several serious diagnoses should have naturally ended my life already — in my current state of Doctor-neglected illnesses / malabsorption, Etc.

No pain meds because adverse reactions to toxic sleep/ anxiety meds— recklessly initiated by Doctors carelessly breaking every guideline with impunity.

Yet my body struggles to persist against any hope of recovery. I desperately want it to stop , to expire.

My so-called Doctors in this sadistic region are just leaving me to literally disintegrate / decompose.

I pray to be released in my medicated "sleep".

I shouldn't be here. It's inhumane.

No chance to CTB — gatekeeper on guard

*PS :
I try to avoid TMI due to my poor choice of username

—formal complaints have been ignored / delayed + mocked

+ acquiring Records was obstructed for 6 months — so my legal case was dumped

 

[AnonymousS]

Hi everyone,

I haven't been seeing many people lately whose major reason for CTB is some physical disease. Is some of you guys out there? My back disease has ruined my life at an early age. Anybody else?

I suffer from chronic fatigue, but my depression came first. It's a combination of a lot of things really, nothing is getting better.

 

[GettingOut]

Hi everyone,

I haven't been seeing many people lately whose major reason for CTB is some physical disease. Is some of you guys out there? My back disease has ruined my life at an early age. Anybody else?

I'm sorry to hear about your back disease. People don't understand how debilitating chronic diseases can be. I have a progressive incurable muscle disease that causes severe chronic pain. I'm fully dependent on others, and they view me as a liability. It will probably happen this year. You're not alone, my friend.

 

[botch3d]

Hi everyone,

I haven't been seeing many people lately whose major reason for CTB is some physical disease. Is some of you guys out there? My back disease has ruined my life at an early age. Anybody else?

I'm here homie … I'm here . It's the only valid reason to ctb in my humble opinion.

 

[AnonymousS]

I'm here homie … I'm here . It's the only valid reason to ctb in my humble opinion.

The only valid reason, who made you God!!?

 

[neoyokio]

chronic migraine sufferer and many symptoms due to Lyme disease. I wish so badly there was support and understanding for us who can't find a livable quality of life, modern medicine has its limits. We deserve dignity in finding a peaceful exit. So many of us develop depression due to chronic illness and the combination can be unbearable. But no one wants to acknowledge that. It's

 

[botch3d]

The only valid reason, who made you God!!?

If you're perfectly physically healthy and want to ctb I don't understand you. Period. Switch me places I'll take your little heart break or loss of a loved one or whatever financial issues you have. Disease and loss of health is the only valuable reason for me . We agree to disagree.

 

[Cryptonite]

Yes, me too

I have reached the future / the point of no return.

But I hoped against hope that things might improve. I was not consciously prepared for the worst— but subconsciously I was expecting it. Hence 2x failed ODs.

Terrifying , multiple neglected/ untreated/ mistreated — now chronic physical conditions.

Cruel, non-consented traumatic procedures / toxic / carcinogenic medications — some described partially across several random posts.

Too horrifying/ triggering to list the surreal catalogue of catastrophes ; accumulating damage; resulting consequences are rapidly degenerative / incurable and excruciating 24/7.

Several serious diagnoses should have naturally ended my life already — in my current state of Doctor-neglected illnesses / malabsorption, Etc.

No pain meds because adverse reactions to toxic sleep/ anxiety meds— recklessly initiated by Doctors carelessly breaking every guideline with impunity.

Yet my body struggles to persist against any hope of recovery. I desperately want it to stop , to expire.

My so-called Doctors in this sadistic region are just leaving me to literally disintegrate / decompose.

I pray to be released in my medicated "sleep".

I shouldn't be here. It's inhumane.

No chance to CTB — gatekeeper on guard

*PS :
I try to avoid TMI due to my poor choice of username

—formal complaints have been ignored / delayed + mocked

+ acquiring Records was obstructed for 6 months — so my legal case was dumped

Previously I'd never say this, but now I believe that your experience with doctors is perfectly normal. Because the average doctor is an uncaring shirker. But that's because the average person in any job is an uncaring shirker. There is something wrong with humanity as a whole, not individuals.

I suffer from chronic fatigue, but my depression came first. It's a combination of a lot of things really, nothing is getting better.

How many times have you been dismissed with chronic fatique? Let me guess, almost every doctor told you it was all in your head.

If you're perfectly physically healthy and want to ctb I don't understand you. Period. Switch me places I'll take your little heart break or loss of a loved one or whatever financial issues you have. Disease and loss of health is the only valuable reason for me . We agree to disagree.

Man, mental diseases are just brutal... physical diseases and mental diseases are on par in this regard.

chronic migraine sufferer and many symptoms due to Lyme disease. I wish so badly there was support and understanding for us who can't find a livable quality of life, modern medicine has its limits. We deserve dignity in finding a peaceful exit. So many of us develop depression due to chronic illness and the combination can be unbearable. But no one wants to acknowledge that. It's

People don't empathize until they experience it themselves... that's a sad fact...

 

[lyric1863]

Legally blindness that happened suddenly. I used to day trade stocks and I cannot do that anymore. I cannot drive either which was a total loss of freedom. my blindness is such that it is like someone moved the sun where it is shining in my eyes all day and night. So I also have constant massive headaches. I have been to specialist after specialist and although my MRIs are not normal it does not point to anything specific. The doctors call it "interesting".

The doctors suspect it could be autoimmune and was put on high dose prednisone for a year which destroyed my bone health. I have broke 5 bones these past 12 months. My leg broke while I was standing up doing nothing. I knew it was broke because it was sticking through my skin!

I can't work, I can't drive, cook, any of my hobbies. My life is over I just have to live it.

 

[AnonymousS]

If you're perfectly physically healthy and want to ctb I don't understand you. Period. Switch me places I'll take your little heart break or loss of a loved one or whatever financial issues you have. Disease and loss of health is the only valuable reason for me . We agree to disagree.

If i was healthy i wouldn't be on here, besides your attitude strongly suggests a lack of empathy to many people on here.

 

[theboy]

I feel sad reading these stories about incurables illnes :(

 

[lyric1863]

Apparently I am in a whining mode. I am 50 BTW. About to have my first grand daughter whom I will never see because of blindness, never read her a book, never color a picture with her, never take her to a park push her in a swing, etc. just the grandmother who sits in a dark room with sunglasses all day and night. Trying to figure out CTB before she is born or after to not associate her birth with my death. I live alone my children live far away so would not be found for days if not weeks. I just wish I could die a natural death tonight

 

[RaspberriesLL]

Yes. I had another back surgery recently and I'm still just in pain. It's a miserable existence.

 

[mojabaka]

Yes, I got neuropathy and POTS from the covid "vaccine". Was 24 back then, soon I'll be 26. It ruined my whole life at a young age.

 

[aloneinwinter]

Yeah. Likely undiagnosed Celiac disease/some gluten issue my whole life which I only discovered on my own testing a few years ago because doctors never tested me. Parents ignored/normalized the gastro/growth/mood symptoms. So then I developed thyroid disease at 12 randomly. And then from starting my period (super late for a girl) I always had extreme pain, mood swings. So I got a hysterectomy at 30 which took away most of those issues thankfully. However I still have treatment-resistant depression, and I'm about to be living in my car/homeless with a dog and a cat and I can't eat most food people would give me (everything has wheat in it.) Lol. Lmao. Maybe I should have CTB sooner.

 

[Cryptonite]

Legally blindness that happened suddenly. I used to day trade stocks and I cannot do that anymore. I cannot drive either which was a total loss of freedom. my blindness is such that it is like someone moved the sun where it is shining in my eyes all day and night. So I also have constant massive headaches. I have been to specialist after specialist and although my MRIs are not normal it does not point to anything specific. The doctors call it "interesting".

The doctors suspect it could be autoimmune and was put on high dose prednisone for a year which destroyed my bone health. I have broke 5 bones these past 12 months. My leg broke while I was standing up doing nothing. I knew it was broke because it was sticking through my skin!

I can't work, I can't drive, cook, any of my hobbies. My life is over I just have to live it.

Same for me, man. Life is over. Yet another example of how doctors constantly fail. But we don't have to live in this hell.

Yes. I had another back surgery recently and I'm still just in pain. It's a miserable existence.

I've been wondering what's going on with you. Fellow spinal sufferer. Screw this crap. It's ridiculous how little doctors know, especially about the back. Just recently I got to talk to a guy who couldn't get a diagnosis from anywhere. Everybody misdiagnosed him, even people in the online forum (which is weird, because people online usually know much more than doctors). So I finally helped him make the correct diagnosis. He was relieved. It's ridiculous. I'm that "googling patient" who "never gets things right" and all doctors hate him. Doctors know everything.

Yeah. Likely undiagnosed Celiac disease/some gluten issue my whole life which I only discovered on my own testing a few years ago because doctors never tested me. Parents ignored/normalized the gastro/growth/mood symptoms. So then I developed thyroid disease at 12 randomly. And then from starting my period (super late for a girl) I always had extreme pain, mood swings. So I got a hysterectomy at 30 which took away most of those issues thankfully. However I still have treatment-resistant depression, and I'm about to be living in my car/homeless with a dog and a cat and I can't eat most food people would give me (everything has wheat in it.) Lol. Lmao. Maybe I should have CTB sooner.

Diagnosed on your own? It doesn't surprise me at all... that's how things work today.

 

[Sister of the Moon]

I've got back and hip issues, plus fibromyalgia. Then mental and emotional issues on top. Covid infection made my existing conditions amplified by a hundred. There's good days and bad days. On a bad day I can barely function at all. It's all downhill from here, I think.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I developed one out of the blue when I already had a ton of problems. Ain't life grand?

 

[Meaninglessness]

I have incurable chronic physical health problems and suicide is the only way out of this meaningless suffering. I am in the situation of whether to live one more day or not. But I can´t continue living like this until I reach old age. It´s difficult to overcome the survival instinct - it takes courage to commit suicide. But there are people who have failed with suicide attempts and they claim that suicide isn´t about courage - it won´t be hard to do when you feel bad enough. However, when the pain is not enough to commit suicide, one probably have to have enough courage to do it.

 

[AnonymousS]

I have incurable chronic physical health problems and suicide is the only whay out of this meaningless suffering. I am in the situation of whether to live one more day or not. But I can´t continue living like this until I reach old age. It´s difficult to overcome the survival instinct - it takes courage to commit suicide. But there are people who have failed with suicide and they claim that suicide isn´t about courage - it won´t be hard to do when you feel bad enough. However, when the pain is not enough to commit suicide, one probably have to have enough courage to do it.

Personally i think it takes quite an amount of courage, however once you've crossed that line-even if you fail-you lose a certain amount of fear over death. I think for everyone it's different, but you get to a certain point where you just cannot carry on anymore. The difficulty is methods and reliability, if we were all able to access peaceful means i think that suicide rates would shoot up. I am not suggesting it's the only choice, but if you rationally and genuinely believe things will not get better, and your quality of life is that poor, many will decide it's a sensible option. Failure and ending up worse off probably puts a lot of people off, it's a very complex and often tragic subject. I am sorry about your ongoing health problems.

 

[Szinuus]

Yes, I got neuropathy and POTS from the covid "vaccine". Was 24 back then, soon I'll be 26. It ruined my whole life at a young age.

Im on the same boat. Neuropathy from jab. Im 22 and fucked for life.

 

[Jarni]

I have polyneuropathy/SFN in all my body, in a very difficult form, from Covid.... (never did covid jabs and never will..,).
Bedbound...No surprise - no more life...

I hate this pandemic :-((