Anyone with broken heart?

[leavingthesoultrap]

My love life is a tragedy.
Few years ago I've found my soul mate but because he had cold feet (his whole personality is like that) our relationship broke down.
I visited him yesterday after 4 years. He invited me. And realised that I still have feelings for him. It's like our souls are on the same frequency.
But we can't be together anymore because of certain circumstances. It hurts so much

 

[LunarPyotr]

Many times but after 3rd time I just was quickly getting over it.
Maybe some day I'll find the right person but so far it's not a huge deal for me anymore. I'm not even searching for anyone anymore

 

[Slow_Farewell]

Well yeah, i think there's a lot of us that's experiences heart break at one point or the other. For me what worked was, thinking/believing that I was lucky enough to have experienced a love like that. It doesn't mean im not sad about it, or honestly, a bit bitter about how it turned out. Im just saying that i wouldnt have wanted to experience life until now without that kind of crazy, consuming, destructive kind of love.

 

[DinoScar]

im with the love of my life, but i feel heartbreak so strongly that it's physically painful. like there's a permanent aching in my chest. i wish things turned out better between us, like how i wanted

 

[jamie_]

yes. the thought of seeing them after 4 years sounds terrifying. just seeing a picture of them online, new or old, would be enough to make my stomach turn to panic and trigger an urgent desire to kms as it would remind my subconscious of what really happened rather than pretending that they just died.

 

[raindrops]

im so heartbroke, 15 yrs with him... from 15 y.o to 30. i need and want to die , i have to die

 

[Desp]

Yes, I am very heartbroken. I keep getting rejected (e.g. seen as just a friend; or seen as useless) by women I like, because I am weak (e.g. have little confidence). I do not think I will recover from the recent rejections. If I CTB, one of the main reasons will be this heartbrokenness.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

yes. the thought of seeing them after 4 years sounds terrifying. just seeing a picture of them online, new or old, would be enough to make my stomach turn to panic and trigger an urgent desire to kms as it would remind my subconscious of what really happened rather than pretending that they just died.

I thought that I was asexual because I don't feel anything when I see a hot guy and I don't even play with myself anymore. But when I saw my ex I just wanted to start ripping his clothes off kissing him and lick him.
Instead I gave him a long hug... I cried all the way home

 

[raindrops]

I thought that I was asexual because I don't feel anything when I see a hot guy and I don't even play with myself anymore. But when I saw my ex I just wanted to start ripping his clothes off kissing him and lick him.
Instead I gave him a long hug... I cried all the way home

I feel this in my soul, I understand that feeling. I found out about Demisexuality. I am clearly Demisexual, meaning I cannot have sex with just anyone/based on looks. I need to have an emotional connection with that person first. I feel relieved to know I'm not alone and I feel sad that it's barely recognised, people will say "that's normal though" but it is so much deeper than that, I don't find anyone sexually attractive unless a deep emotional bond is created. I also don't play with myself either (this is so personal I'm sorry I'm an open-book) I can't take this anymore I feel like when will I find someone? Who is better than my ex bf (I hate saying ex) 15 years for nothing but pain. I need to die, today I'm writing my note. I can't live like this.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

I feel this in my soul, I understand that feeling. I found out about Demisexuality. I am clearly Demisexual, meaning I cannot have sex with just anyone/based on looks. I need to have an emotional connection with that person first. I feel relieved to know I'm not alone and I feel sad that it's barely recognised, people will say "that's normal though" but it is so much deeper than that, I don't find anyone sexually attractive unless a deep emotional bond is created. I also don't play with myself either (this is so personal I'm sorry I'm an open-book) I can't take this anymore I feel like when will I find someone? Who is better than my ex bf (I hate saying ex) 15 years for nothing but pain. I need to die, today I'm writing my note. I can't live like this.

Im in a such bad place right now that I might just chug my SN tomorrow raw without antiemetic. I feel like my heart is shattered into million pieces and there's nothing but suffering for me in this life