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john273726161

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Jan 16, 2021
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Desperately looking to get some N in Ireland! Post below or private message me if you can help. Thanks :)
 
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Nymph

he/him
Jul 15, 2020
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You have to email A and buy it from him or fly to Mexico. N is hard to get so you can't just get it anywhere, unless you rob a veterinary clinic lol
 
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sourpink

Student
Aug 27, 2020
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yeah, gonna echo their thoughts above me.
n isn't easily obtainable - you're most likely gonna have to order from one of 2 sources and hope you actually receive your order like everyone else does in taking such a costly risk.
 
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SuicidallyCurious

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Dec 20, 2020
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My advice to people who cannot access N is the same I will repeat in this post:

Find a recent and credible source of someone procuring N in another country
Borrow on your credit card / sell everything you have for the ticket
Go to said country or location and CTB

Unless you have a really bad passport like North Korea citizen this is doable and in some cases is cheaper than ordering N online. The cost of N as several hundreds dollars via internet is high not due to its manufacturing cost but due to the illegal nature of the transaction

Edit: CV19 is going on now so this obviously is considerably more difficult but many countries still have their borders open and flying
 
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john273726161

Member
Jan 16, 2021
29
My advice to people who cannot access N is the same I will repeat in this post:

Find a recent and credible source of someone procuring N in another country
Borrow on your credit card / sell everything you have for the ticket
Go to said country or location and CTB

Unless you have a really bad passport like North Korea citizen this is doable and in some cases is cheaper than ordering N online. The cost of N as several hundreds dollars via internet is high not due to its manufacturing cost but due to the illegal nature of the transaction

Edit: CV19 is going on now so this obviously is considerably more difficult but many countries still have their borders open and flying
It's pretty hard to travel right now so I'm not sure what I'll do
 
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johntee2

Member
Jan 17, 2021
59
Desperately looking to get some N in Ireland! Post below or private message me if you can help. Thanks :)
Hi John
I'm a John in ireland too with the same goal as you. I'm wondering if we could locally source something. H or F. Let me know if you have any luck. I have money to get N but am not confident.
 
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asda101

Member
May 11, 2022
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Hey Ireland person looking for the same can travel
 
dredd1981

dredd1981

All these moments will be lost in time
May 1, 2022
102
Tbh you're probably better looking at SN, it takes a little longer to work but it's a lot easier to get than N and it's not illegal so you won't get prosecuted if the authorities catch you importing it
 
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HopelessDesperate

Member
May 12, 2022
7
I'm in NI.. would be really interested in sourcing some H or F (but i think that's even harder to get than H). Have absolutely no contacts for anything like that though :-( I think a H overdose would be peaceful.. from the little I know.
 
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dredd1981

All these moments will be lost in time
May 1, 2022
102
I'm in NI.. would be really interested in sourcing some H or F (but i think that's even harder to get than H). Have absolutely no contacts for anything like that though :-( I think a H overdose would be peaceful.. from the little I know.
Have a look at the SN mega thread and see if that sounds like something you could do. SN takes longer than N but it's way cheaper and it's not illegal….though it is difficult to source these days
 
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HopelessDesperate

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May 12, 2022
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I've looked through pretty much everything on the 'Suicide Resource Compilation' sticky.. and read as much as I can on here about N and SN.. (i've only just joined as a member but i've been accessing this site to research methods for a long time).. Obviously N would be the dream.. SN would be ok too.. but i just wouldn't know where to begin with sourcing it and getting the whole set up right and getting the other things you need to go along with it.. My mind is quite slow/foggy due to my mental health so it all sounds so complicated and confusing. I have no clue about things like the dark web or bitcoin or any of that stuff.

I'm too afraid to jump/hang (i've tried multiple times).

I suppose my ideal scenario would be H.. with someone else.. so i wouldn't be alone.

I've even been looking into what non prescription stuff I could use but nothing seems reliable.

Thanks for the advice though dredd :-)
 
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asda101

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May 11, 2022
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I've looked through pretty much everything on the 'Suicide Resource Compilation' sticky.. and read as much as I can on here about N and SN.. (i've only just joined as a member but i've been accessing this site to research methods for a long time).. Obviously N would be the dream.. SN would be ok too.. but i just wouldn't know where to begin with sourcing it and getting the whole set up right and getting the other things you need to go along with it.. My mind is quite slow/foggy due to my mental health so it all sounds so complicated and confusing. I have no clue about things like the dark web or bitcoin or any of that stuff.

I'm too afraid to jump/hang (i've tried multiple times).

I suppose my ideal scenario would be H.. with someone else.. so i wouldn't be alone.

I've even been looking into what non prescription stuff I could use but nothing seems reliable.

Thanks for the advice though dredd :-)
I'm in the same situation, tried to hang didnt work, tried to drown but resisted, crash scared will hurt people/ not die, train will traumatize people and no access to drugs etc. I get so tired and my brain hurts that I can't think how I could possibly do it but I've fully given up on life and only get happy when I think it's okay I'm going today but then can't do it. I keep looking up all sorts but getting nowhere
 
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HopelessDesperate

Member
May 12, 2022
7
Oh Asda you sound like you're in the exact same situation as me.. It's awful isn't it :-(

The longer it goes on the harder it gets.. I've fully given up on life too.. I want to ctb asap.. because even the idea of going on another day is painful.. but I just don't seem to be able to get the courage for the only real method available to me - hanging.

I feel like I'm trapped.. can't live but can't die. I also feel like a coward that I can't just do it!

I spend so much time & energy looking up methods and get nowhere.
 
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Pain In The Ass

Wizard
Feb 10, 2022
638
I would, and can, help, but I just got 'warned' for disagreeing with a 'Currycel', so you can all fuck right off.

Through research, and savings, I have gained access to stocks of lethal doses (enough to kill many people) of opiates, benzos, amitriptyline, phenobarbital, and tying slipknots - you all need to try harder.
 
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dredd1981

All these moments will be lost in time
May 1, 2022
102
I've looked through pretty much everything on the 'Suicide Resource Compilation' sticky.. and read as much as I can on here about N and SN.. (i've only just joined as a member but i've been accessing this site to research methods for a long time).. Obviously N would be the dream.. SN would be ok too.. but i just wouldn't know where to begin with sourcing it and getting the whole set up right and getting the other things you need to go along with it.. My mind is quite slow/foggy due to my mental health so it all sounds so complicated and confusing. I have no clue about things like the dark web or bitcoin or any of that stuff.

I'm too afraid to jump/hang (i've tried multiple times).

I suppose my ideal scenario would be H.. with someone else.. so i wouldn't be alone.

I've even been looking into what non prescription stuff I could use but nothing seems reliable.

Thanks for the advice though dredd :-)
I can't send you a pm until you've posted more, when you get the ability to pm send me a message and I'll tell you where you could get SN
I would, and can, help, but I just got 'warned' for disagreeing with a 'Currycel', so you can all fuck right off.

Through research, and savings, I have gained access to stocks of lethal doses (enough to kill many people) of opiates, benzos, amitriptyline, phenobarbital, and tying slipknots - you all need to try harder.
Damn, bro, you sure your name isn't Walter white?
 
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HopelessDesperate

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May 12, 2022
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I would, and can, help, but I just got 'warned' for disagreeing with a 'Currycel', so you can all fuck right off.

Through research, and savings, I have gained access to stocks of lethal doses (enough to kill many people) of opiates, benzos, amitriptyline, phenobarbital, and tying slipknots - you all need to try harder.
What's a 'Currycel' lol?

Wow you sound like you've got your own personal pharmacy going on - kudos to you!

I'd be intetested to know what your preferred method is since you have all those options?

Are you in Ireland/UK/NI too?
 
Pain In The Ass

Pain In The Ass

Wizard
Feb 10, 2022
638
What's a 'Currycel' lol?

Wow you sound like you've got your own personal pharmacy going on - kudos to you!

I'd be intetested to know what your preferred method is since you have all those options?

Are you in Ireland/UK/NI too?
Apparently, it's an 'incel' (involuntarily celibate), who happens to also be Indian or Pakistani, and has decided to put their lack of successes with women down to them being one of those races, whilst living in a Western country, and due also to the lack of bulge in his penile area, which he claimed to know puts women off him, even though any sensible man knows women do not prioritize that shit AT ALL! If you can't get pussy, it's because you're shit at being funny and playful. If you can't get a supermodel, well, that's a different issue altogether, because hardly any of us qualify for them! And Sanctioned Suicide gave me a 'warning' for calling his logic retarded, which it IS! Go on SS ban me, I've got all my shit to CTB, so fuck you!!!

My preferred method is for the pain to go away and to continue living. But if that doesn't happen, I'm thinking right now, although it changes a lot, that I'll take an OD (SN or Ama) before quickly Full-hanging somewhere out in the countryside where no one will find me for a day or so, from under a train bridge or some shit. May as well go double method, just to be sure! Some people disagree though.
 
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HopelessDesperate

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May 12, 2022
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Apparently, it's an 'incel' (involuntarily celibate), who happens to also be Indian or Pakistani, and has decided to put their lack of successes with women down to them being one of those races, whilst living in a Western country, and due also to the lack of bulge in his penile area, which he claimed to know puts women off him, even though any sensible man knows women do not prioritize that shit AT ALL! If you can't get pussy, it's because you're shit at being funny and playful. If you can't get a supermodel, well, that's a different issue altogether, because hardly any of us qualify for them! And Sanctioned Suicide gave me a 'warning' for calling his logic retarded, which it IS! Go on SS ban me, I've got all my shit to CTB, so fuck you!!!

My preferred method is for the pain to go away and to continue living. But if that doesn't happen, I'm thinking right now, although it changes a lot, that I'll take an OD (SN or Ama) before quickly Full-hanging somewhere out in the countryside where no one will find me for a day or so, from under a train bridge or some shit. May as well go double method, just to be sure! Some people disagree though.
Poor Currycel.. most people just want to be loved right?

You're so lucky to have access to all of those options!!

Aww when you say "my preferred method is for the pain to go away and to continue living" its heartbreaking. Most people here must feel pretty similar, I know I do.

If you don't mind me asking are you ctb because of physical pain rather than psychological pain/mental illness? Because I can't imagine being able to focus enough to gather all the pharmaceutical resources you have while struggling with a mental illness.
 

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