Anyone want family to suffer?

[Iamcharlie]

I want them to hurt.
I need them to feel my pain
I need them to wish they would've done something
I need them to think it's their fault
I need them to cry and cut and feel hopeless
I want them to consider suicide
I want them to be in agonizing pain
I want them to drink and take pills
I don't want them to forget
I don't want them to think that it wasn't their fault, because it was.
I want them to wake up screaming at night
I need them to be sad, mad, and depressed
I dont want them to say I was a beautiful girl that should still be here because in a way it's their fault.

I dont want anyone telling me this is wrong. I want ways I can make them feel worse after my death.
Remember, you may have a good family but some of us are less fortunate.

 

[Meditation guide]

I want them to hurt.
I need them to feel my pain
I need them to wish they would've done something
I need them to think it's their fault
I need them to cry and cut and feel hopeless
I want them to consider suicide
I want them to be in agonizing pain
I want them to drink and take pills
I don't want them to forget
I don't want them to think that it wasn't their fault, because it was.
I want them to wake up screaming at night
I need them to be sad, mad, and depressed
I dont want them to say I was a beautiful girl that should still be here because in a way it's their fault.

I dont want anyone telling me this is wrong. I want ways I can make them feel worse after my death.
Remember, you may have a good family but some of us are less fortunate.

Only if your family loved you a lot would they feel that much pain to do the things you described.

 

[Worndown]

If your family hurts you bad enough to have these thoughts, it is possible they will get over your passing.
Your life is worth more than being a vehicle if vengeance against your family. If possible, spend some energy on YOU.

 

[Supertramp]

I wish I could bear your pain so you didn't have to feel like this. I'm sure you can think of many ways to make them hurt. All of them to your further detriment.

 

[falloutcarter13]

Its okay to have these thoughts and feelings, its plain to see you're in pain and you see them as the cause. I hope you can find some peace and get a clear heart and mind, whether you go or stay

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I feel this exactly about my abusive ex and a few family members.

 

[GoneGoneGone]

I feel the same way and, it's ok